Found out about a month ago that DH has been having a 6 year affair. That was his second indiscretion so I've called time on it though it seems he has been unhappy for years anyway. He hasn't fought to save our marriage at all. We have two DDs 8 and 6.
I need you all to remind me just what a betrayal this is. I know it's early days but I just can't get angry with him at all, I'm just profoundly sad.
We'd been together for 16 years, married for 13, been through a lot together, I know I took him for granted at times and am certainly not perfect. I imagine I must've been hard to live with at times. Just the same as him though, he has some serious faults. We had become like friends raising children. He has been my best friend for years. I miss him and how we used to be together.
We're cooperating well on the divorce, agreeing on finances, childcare, maintenance payments, putting the house on the market, am filing my petition this week on grounds of adultery. He's doing the right thing financially for me and the girls. There's no hate, just an incredibly sad, resigned going through the motions. He's hopefully moving out in the next few weeks when he finds somewhere.
I'm looking back at photos of times we've shared in the last 6 years and realising it was a lie though struggling to actually feel any anger about it. Bloody Facebook keeps reminding me of 'this time 3 years ago' 
I just keep thinking about the man I met and fell in love with. He is a good man and a lovely dad. And I can understand that he has disrespected me to an incredible degree but it feels so abstract.
It's the logical decision to move back home as I can't afford to buy anything where we live. I'm very mixed about this; both happy at the thought of being near my folks, one good friend and in the next most familiar place for our DDs. But also devastated to leave our lifestyle, area, DDs wonderful school and lovely friends.
I can picture a time when all this is over and we're all happy again, but I can't imagine how I'll ever get past this sadness. I want to emerge from all this as what I would describe as fabulous; not bitter, taking care of myself and living life to the full - but to get there I know I need to process the anger and humiliation.
Please give me a virtual shake, MN 
I should be fuming right?
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couchtospecialk · 06/09/2017 06:54
Boatmistress hang on I don't get it... It is a metaphor? Or just a horrifying concept? shudder Either way it took my mind off things for a mo 
Juststopit I read that too, so lovely. And so many people have told me that they're really happy now or even happier than they were before. Am trying to keep the faith... you must too 
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Seeyamonday you're my guru. That is exactly what I want... To have moved on and for the girls to see us both thriving, cordial and loving them. Great to hear your story, strong woman x
Juststopit ah hugs I had similar on Tuesday then will do tomo too as they're coming back to take pics let it out lovely. Your strength WILL return. I had an STI test today and have finally been feeling angry with him and his narcissistic ways. Friends are now telling me they never thought he was good enough for me! It makes me sad but is very interesting.
You've got this Just... day 11 for you now? Are you eating? X
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