Just after Easter, I discovered my husband had been having an affair for the past three years, thanks to an anonymous letter I received in the post. I am absolutely devastated. We have been married for 24 years, and together for 30. I thought our marriage was sound and this is a complete and profound shock. He has moved out and is renting a flat. He says he has stopped seeing the woman he was having an affair with, and that he would like to rebuild our marriage. I do now know whether to trust him as I only have his word for this. Five months on, I am still beside myself and do not know what to do. I am struggling to see how I could ever trust him again, when he has lied to me for the past three years. Yet I do not want to be the one to make the decision to break up our family, when I have devoted most of my adult life to nurturing our daughters and creating our home and family life. Part of me wants to find a way to work through this, but when I see him, I feel such hurt and anger. We had a few sessions with a Relate counsellor but this was unsuccessful. I had hoped that 5 months on, I would have worked out what to do, but I have not. I am completely financially dependent on him, and feel such a fool now for having chosen to be a stay-at-home mum when I have a phD and could have built a career for myself (I'm 53 now, and have been at home for 20 years, so am struggling to see how I could get back out into the world of work!) He owns his own small company, and had the affair with someone who works for him - she is still there and I don't get the impression she's trying to move on. I don't know who started the affair - from what he has told me, it sounds as if it was consensual. I am struggling with the fact that she is still there at work; he says he does not see her and there is nothing he can do to make her leave. I do get this and am aware of the sexual politics at play. But I cannot see how we can move on while she is still there, and I cannot believe that she will have made no attempt to make contact with him in the workplace. I am so confused; I want to save our marriage, largely for the sake of our daughters who are both at university now, but who have been devastated by what has happened and who would like to see us work things out. Another part of me wants to be strong enough to walk away; he has tainted all our family memories and trashed most of my adult lie and I do not think I could ever forgive him for deceiving me for three whole years and for the scale of his betrayal. But this is not what I expected at this age: I feel like I've been in a car crash, and as the months pass, I feel less and less able to make sense of what he has done, or to move on. Feeling paralysed by indecision, anger and pain - help, please!!!
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My husband of 24 years has been having an affair
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