Hi....I am a dad, so firstly I don't know if posting anything here is appropriate, but I'm keen to hear some views on my situation from an independent female perspective. I'll try and summarise:
we're both 49
Married 23 years this year - mostly great
3 brilliant children, 18, 17 and 13
I am a pretty full on guy, alpha male, run my own business and quite a gregarious and extrovert character
I have just left my business at the end of January following a tough 2 year period and am restarting again
My wife has stayed at home to raise our children (who are v balanced and fantastic), so has not worked for 18+ years
I have supported us financially with big mortgage, 3 x private schools, etc etc.
It's been very hard for the last few years and financially, we have been up against it and liquidated all assets to pay for school fees and are now left with just the equity in our home and some income for the consulting work that I do.
The last few years have been very tough for us and also on our marriage and the pressure has spilled into our personal lives.
I have been too heavy handed on my wife and her emotions and pushed her too hard
She has lost her "spirit" and identity and feels crushed, bullied and manipulated by me
She has detached from me emotionally probably over the last 2 years.
We have had a lot of emotional friction over the last year, but have not ever sought any outside help.
In the run up to the 18th Jan, we have had no professional help, but I have felt we're "losing it", but my wife has always been accusing me of being the problem. I have tried to help her by telling here to find happiness and do more things for herself and have pushed her to make a decision about the direction of our future
On the 18th Jan, she told me she wants a divorce and 2 weeks later I received a draft petition from her.
In the last 4 weeks, we have spent just a few hours in total discussing this, but she is adamant she wants a divorce and that it is 100% my fault.
Our collective friends are stunned and she has not discussed any of this with them. In fact I do not really know who she has spoken to apart from her immediate family and a few outsiders
Her mother and father came over last week (they live in Ireland) and I was told by her father in no uncertain terms, our marriage is over and I am 100% to blame.
I still love my wife with all my heart and I do not want a divorce, but I don't have a choice.
We have missed out a big step in the process having gone from lots of relationship problems to a full divorce in about 1 month, with no counselling or professional intervention.
It feels like she has just hit the eject button out of fear and panic and wants to run away without thought for the collateral damage to children and friends/family or where this course of action will really take us
I know there is no easy way around a divorce and it is one of the most painful experiences and also that eventually, we'll be OK but do not see any good coming from this and despite my faults as a husband, this just feels profoundly wrong
I'd love to hear some comments
Thanks, with a very heavy heart
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sosaddad · 15/02/2016 13:44
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