After being with my DH for 24 years and married for 17 I left as he was quite a depressive and angry person and I couldn't bear to walk own egg shells any longer.
I thought leaving would be the hard bit......I never planned to but one day I just snapped and within 10 mins me and DS (12) had gone.
The guilt is crucifying me......I have been gone for almost 4 months now and it just gets worse and worse. DS has been awful, DH is devastated and full of remorse and one minute he is angry with me, the next he is crying.....I cannot handle what I have done to both of them but I can't go back as it would be for the wrong reasons.
DH has had a shit life, some bad things happened to him in his childhood which he only told me about nice I had left, his mum and dad are both dead and his brother who he was very close to committed suicide almost 2 years ago.
I'm not the same person anymore and I have been really depressed and drinking too much etc etc.....how can I release all this guilt, it really is killing me.
Is this normal, anyone else laden with guilt when they were the ones who chose to end their relationship?