Hi guys, first time poster here so I’m sorry if this has been gone over before.
Basically me and baby mama have been split up for 2 and a half years now but I still can’t get over her. She’s just started seeing someone and it feels like someone has removed my soul.
We split up in Oct 17, mainly due to the mental health issues I was suffering from March that year. Without going in to explicit detail I had a major issue with a former business partner who went round spreading rumours about me and it just sent me in to depression, and severe anxiety. I wouldn’t want to drive certain roads, i wouldn’t go places and I sold my other business so I didn’t have to be around anyone.
During this time i wasn’t great to be around and was very snappy. I took it out on her a lot. It’s totally my fault but I just couldn’t help it. When this was going on she started staying out after work and getting drunk and stuff it caused further strain because I felt I needed her there and felt she was neglecting me when I needed her the most.
We split up late October and carried on living together till January. For the first few months I was ok i didn’t miss her at all, but I just all changed and I can’t pinpoint when, I just feel like I let her down. We started getting along a lot better and started doing things again - I even took her to a Liverpool match - she was invited to everything with the boy and my family and it was all ok.
I even wrote her a 18 page letter explaining where my head was when we went through those last few months and stuff to try make sure she didn’t feel bad but she said all that did was make her feel worse.
Anyway, this weekend I walked in to her house to drop off the boy (he lives with me 5 days a week) and on the sofa there was a valentines card “to my boyfriend” when I asked her I got the normal none response of a mumble. It absolutely crushed me. I can’t explain it. I picked my son up yesterday and had to try my best (and failed) not to cry in front of him. I just feel like I’ve let him and her down by not being the person I should’ve been for them. It’s absolutely crushed me I can’t even begin to think of what it will be like if she wants to introduce him to my son. I know I need to get over her, I’ve tried. I wasn’t dating this girl but i was sleeping with her up until a few weeks ago when funnily enough she told me she wanted a relationship but I told her I just wasn’t ready. I really need advice to get past all this and be happy. Every time I think of getting a gf I feel sick like I’m cheating on her or something, I feel like I can never meet anyone and online dating is definitely not for me, I just don’t know what to do and feel completely lost and my son seeing me cry has upset me even more
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Charlieread1 · 16/02/2020 09:25
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