You were all right. It’s just never going to end.

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Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 20:12:42

So many of you on here have said my anxiety won’t just end, and for weeks I’ve told myself it will.
It will end once I’ve got my second jab.

Well you were all right. It’s not just going to end. It’s going to find something else to worry about.

So last night it was approved for me to have my second jab as Pfizer (following first dose of AZ)

I felt so relieved and happy. But tonight, that nagging anxious voice, the doubt, it’s getting to me.

I’m starting to panic now about it not being safe to mix vaccine doses.
Is it going to cause me long term side effects.
I’m telling myself it’s not a good idea and it’s better to just stay partially vaccinated with 1Az

I’ve got my appointment tomorrow morning and I really want to go.

I don’t want to have my second AZ so my option is 2nd one as Pfizer or stay as one vaccine.

I’m worrying that mixing vaccines won’t mean I’m fully vaccinated.
Does it mean I don’t have as much protection.
Will I not be able to travel?

FML 😭

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IceCreamAndCandyfloss Mon 21-Jun-21 20:43:17

You could have four weeks of worry after the jab and be protected or endless worry that one of you will bring covid home from work, nursery etc. You’re less likely to pass it onto your child if vaccinated too which would be a huge bonus.

Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 20:48:28

IceCreamAndCandyfloss

You could have four weeks of worry after the jab and be protected or endless worry that one of you will bring covid home from work, nursery etc. You’re less likely to pass it onto your child if vaccinated too which would be a huge bonus.

I’m not having AZ. I’ve already made that
decision.

I’ve booked to have Pfizer in the morning but I don’t know if I’m making the wrong decision.

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Laquila Mon 21-Jun-21 20:50:19

As an awful lot of people said on your other thread, the most constructive thing you could do right now is focus on getting appropriate help for your mental health issues.

SerenadeOfTheSchoolRun Mon 21-Jun-21 20:50:29

They have been researching this thinking that it is likely to be more effective. Once the results of the study are out (assuming that they are right) then maybe you won't be so anxious. All the vaccines show the immune system a spike protein so I would be surprised if two different vaccines didn't work better than a single one of either.

The travel thing will probably have to wait for the results of the study too but if you really don't want a 2nd AZ then it doesn't make any difference as one vaccine isn't going to let you travel more than none in the near future.

strangeshapedpotato Mon 21-Jun-21 20:52:21

Mixing vaccines doubles the risk of an allergic reaction, as effectively you have two chances to react .That's the only real risk here.

As far as efficacy goes, two jabs of any vaccine is going to give you better protection than one jab. Whether that double protection is slightly higher, or slightly lower than it might have been if you'd stuck with AZ is unknown currently. I'd bet it would be slightly higher, but that's just a hunch.

Sparklingbrook Mon 21-Jun-21 20:53:15

Laquila

As an awful lot of people said on your other thread, the most constructive thing you could do right now is focus on getting appropriate help for your mental health issues.

I haven’t seen the other thread but o would agree. Don’t rely on internet strangers to answer the questions, they won’t know. Seek RL information.

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picklemewalnuts Mon 21-Jun-21 20:54:55

You've already worked out your anxiety isn't about which vaccination to have, that is just the focus.

So ignore the vax issue- you've done the research and made your decision, so move on. No point rethinking it endlessly.

What would be useful, is to see GP about underlying anxiety becoming more disabling, and start treatment.

Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 20:56:22

*What would be useful, is to see GP about underlying anxiety becoming more disabling, and start treatment*

I’ve done this already.

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Bryonyshcmyony Mon 21-Jun-21 20:56:37

Fucking hell. How come you get Pfizer when my 18 year old dd with health anxiety was told no.

She had her second AZ jab despite being terrified and is fine btw.

Wolfiefan Mon 21-Jun-21 20:57:49

@Louby08 you have posted time and time again about your anxiety. Nothing anyone posts here will reassure you.
Get off MN. Stop feeding the anxiety.
Look after your MH.

Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 20:59:20

Bryonyshcmyony

Fucking hell. How come you get Pfizer when my 18 year old dd with health anxiety was told no.

She had her second AZ jab despite being terrified and is fine btw.

@Bryonyshcmyony

I was seen in A&E last night. My anxiety was so severe it’s affecting my life too much.

I saw a Dr there who approved Pfizer. They spoke to my GP today and I’m going there tomorrow to have it.

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Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 20:59:45

Wolfiefan

*@Louby08* you have posted time and time again about your anxiety. Nothing anyone posts here will reassure you.
Get off MN. Stop feeding the anxiety.
Look after your MH.

@Wolfiefan

I know but it’s because I don’t know what to do.

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Bryonyshcmyony Mon 21-Jun-21 21:00:44

Oh ok
If you need to go to A&E for anxiety then you need more help than we can give.

Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 21:03:02

Bryonyshcmyony

Oh ok
If you need to go to A&E for anxiety then you need more help than we can give.

@Bryonyshcmyony

I am getting the help. I’m under secondary mental health team now.

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picklemewalnuts Mon 21-Jun-21 21:04:09

Well done, Louby.

Good mental health is hard work. You have to constantly check yourself- it's a bit like dieting. You have to choose to step away from a negative thought pattern- repeatedly.

So what you need to do this evening is accept that you have made a decision re the vax- maybe write down 'at x o'clock tomorrow I am having vax. That's a really good thing'. Then you need to do something else- go for a run, bake a cake, read a book... something, anything, to distract you from thinking about the vax.

And that's how it is all the time, a conscious decision to stop the negative thought and fill your brain with something else.

Bluntness100 Mon 21-Jun-21 21:04:41

Op have you name changed were you posting constant threads before about Covid?

Wolfiefan Mon 21-Jun-21 21:04:43

Things you could do:
Mindfulness
Exercise
Take a walk outside
Start a hobby or continue with one you enjoy
Try a colouring book
Read or audiobook
Some self care. Nails?
Clean a part of the house that’s been neglected. (Yes kitchen drawer of doom I’m looking at you!!!)
Re watch a favourite series
Research for a future holiday
Train to improve job prospects
Basically anything and everything apart from obsessing over the thing you’re mucous about OP.

Wolfiefan Mon 21-Jun-21 21:05:25

Mucous???
WTF?
Anxious.
Perhaps I should try and improve my spelling instead of being on MN Op. blush

DamnShesaSexyChick Mon 21-Jun-21 21:06:06

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Shapesorted Mon 21-Jun-21 21:07:33

I really feel it would be in your best interests to have your MN account suspended for a little while. You've posted for months and it's just fuelling and feeding the anxiety. It's not about the vaccine, it's obsessive behaviour that you need to break the cycle from. Good luck.

Bryonyshcmyony Mon 21-Jun-21 21:08:52

Constantly seeking reassurance won't help you in the long run.

PinkSparklyPussyCat Mon 21-Jun-21 21:09:54

What are you on about @DamnShesaSexyChick? That sort of comment really isn't helpful or relevant.

OP, please listen to the advice from Wolfiefan and Shapesorted, being on here isn't helping you, it just seems to be adding to your anxiety.

Louby08 Mon 21-Jun-21 21:11:11

Shapesorted

I really feel it would be in your best interests to have your MN account suspended for a little while. You've posted for months and it's just fuelling and feeding the anxiety. It's not about the vaccine, it's obsessive behaviour that you need to break the cycle from. Good luck.

@Shapesorted

I have not posted for months hmm

Mumsnet will be able to verify this. I haven’t even had my account for months.

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Ishbam Mon 21-Jun-21 21:12:55

“ I know but it’s because I don’t know what to do.”

So you will listen to the folk on here, you think they will know what is best for you???

You have had professional advice so for the sake of your health remove yourself from MN , You will get conflicting advice on here,

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