I've been okay up until now but in the last week, I've really started to struggle.
I have a 3 year old with autism (diagnosed) and global development delay, and non verbal. I have have a 12 month old. I've never had a problem with DS and yet now, he's having constant meltdowns and hitting out. He has never been fussed on his sister but she's constantly pestering him now. I'm struggling to keep them separate. If I try to do anything with with DS, my daughter screams until she's involved. She's also going through speration anxiety so wants to be held constantly. It all feels impossible when I'm trying to get my son to do an activity and engage at all. DH is working from home and under a ton of stress. He's working into his lunch break and often later.
I can't take the kids for a walk on my own so DS is sometimes reluctant which makes it difficult while trying to push a buggy as well.
I NEED time to myself, always have done, but I'm not getting any. If I go for a walk, I take DD in order to give my son a break from his sister.
I no longer want to get out of bed as it's one endless struggle of dealing with kids, changing nappies, clear up mess, laundry, dealing with tantrums and meltdowns. The house is a tip, despite what feels like endless tidying.
We used to go out a lot and my mum had DD at least once a week. Plus my son had started school so there were times when I had flexibility of just one kid or we could go to the park so DS could run in a enclosed space.
And now it's just day after day of shit and no break. My mental health is in the gutter. Weve had a crappy year, we were just starting to get back on an even keel and then lockdown happened. I've been trying to take it day by day, be thankful for the small things, etc. But it's all gone to shit. And it's effecting DS in a big way. No understands. No one gets it.
I had a panic attack in the middle of the night. First one in years.
I get that people have it a lot worse and I have a lot to be grateful for but I don't know how to cope anymore.
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Falafellygood · 19/05/2020 13:51
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