Last Tuesday I lost my beautiful Nanny to this shitty virus. She's been in my life for 37 years. She was the first person to hold me when I was born. She helped my mum raise me (dad died before I was born). When she died I wanted to be able to kiss her goodbye and hold her hand. She was in a care home so this wasn't possible. Hadn't seen her for 6+ weeks when she died due to the home locking down even before the official lockdown.
My mum called me today to ask whether I wanted to go and see her in the Chapel of Rest. Due to the virus we didn't think this was even going to be an option, but apparently its OK. I have never been to a Chapel before. Even with previous family members as I've always wanted to remember them as they were, and not well (to put it bluntly), dead on a table. My initial reaction was no, but I have been churning it over in my head since I got into bed.
Will I regret it for the rest of my life if I don't go and say goodbye or ruin my memories of her by that being my last image of her?
I'm sorry it's a bit of a depressing thread but I just don't know what to do 🤷♀️
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Whattodowhattodooo · 06/05/2020 01:43
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