I'm just so tired and drained by it all....I've already been through so many big life events already (cancer, death of my mum, job loss, house loss, secondary infertility, child with SEN) and at last we were on an even keel, things were looking good and we were supposed to be on our holiday of a lifetime in May to celebrate getting through all of it...gone obviously.
My child was out of school for more than 2 years, he's barely accessed education during primary and he's nearing the end of it now. He's finally in a good SEN school and has made so much progress but they had to shut as they have too many shielded staff - that's not going to change is it? How will they ever open before a vaccine? My child is regressing and all the progress is being loss. It's so sad. He's already so disadvantaged. And there was no bloody Joe Wicks and online classes for him when he failed at home for 2 years.
I'm still working in a hospital (not front line) but everything I do has obstacles of PPE, technology, staffing, room space etc. Nothing is easy and the ground keeps moving. It's so stressful and (non covid) patients are suffering. I go home with a headache every day and just feel so flat and unsuccessful.
The things I like are swimming, driving to the sea and eating chips, Sunday lunches with my family, taking my child to the activities that support him and keep him happy - swimming, climbing, cinema, safe eating out places etc. It's all gone and these are the things that won't come back quickly even when the lockdown lifts slowly.
I feel like I'm in this black, bleak world with no point to it. Little that keeps our life rich and happy is open to us. What's the point to it all? I'm not particularly depressed (been there before), more grieving and sad and going through the process I think. Sorry for being so self indulgent. No need for replies, just need a space to vent.
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redtickreturn · 29/04/2020 19:43
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