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Talk to me about your anxiety throughout all of this(15 Posts)
Sometimes I feel so alone with my anxiety , I have a great DP and ds 2, my DP sort of understands it , but I’m very good at hiding my feelings and also my anxiety attacks.
But I had an attack last night where I was that short of breath I had in my head that I had coronavirus and I was going to die.
The reason I knew it was an anxiety attack was because an hour later it all just disappeared, like that as if nothing happened ( and the fact I didn’t have any other symptoms ) but it’s so so scary
What are your symptoms and how do you deal with it ? Do you get bad attack’s ?
My anxiety is through the roof. I can't eat or sleep. I was rushed to hospital on Friday after a seizure. I am home now but worried sick that I will have caught it.
Same. It’s definitely on another level lately.
Hope you’re feeling better Old bag!
Yeah I had what I think was a panic attack the other day and I have never had one before. I felt like someone was sitting on my chest and I couldn’t breathe and went all dizzy and had to lie down. I was also convincing myself I had got Covid and was going to die. I did calm down in the end and no other symptoms or breathing problems but it did come on when I was reading something in the news that frightened me. It’s exhausting being this anxious all the time with no end in sight. I need to go back to work next week as well so I am stressing out about that as I am in the vulnerable but not shielded category.
The week before the schools finished it was really bad. My chest was so tight I had begun to wonder if it was actually a mild case of corona. As soon as the kids were off and I could start using all the prep I had put in place the constant tightness eased considerably. It was almost like pre-match nerves (that lasted non-stop for days!).
Since then I've had a few panic attacks each week. I am much more irritable/stressy generally though, and my drinking has increased to a drink or two most days from a small one 3 or 4 nights a week.
My anxiety tends to come from being overwhelmed with stuff to do or uncertainty, so having finished prepping to within an inch of my life and now back into a routine (even a crappy one I didn't want or choose) it's better. Still worrying over money (my SE work has dried up, DH is furloughed), feeling overwhelmed/touched out with the lack of time alone though.
To be honest, it's unbearable. I've lost eight people I really care about (through work in a care home) and I'm on my knees with it. I feel traumatised.
I have suffered with GAD for years and years with frequent flare ups of health anxiety (made worse last year by 4YO DD having a cancer scare) and what is happening now is probably my nightmare scenario, the one my rational brain always told me wouldn't actually happen.
I honestly wouldn't choose to keep on going if I didn't have my children.
I bought an oximeter for £20 from eBay. It came a couple of days ago and as soon as I feel breathless I pop it on my finger and it tells me my oxygen levels are 98/99% so it helps me to know I am ok and not low on oxygen.
It's through the roof to be honest. Feel sick constantly, yesterday my hands started to shake. I've cried most days. Trying to pull myself together as going back to work tomorrow after days off (frontline nurse, several patients now tested positive in my unit which I had close contact with last week). Suffered with anxiety in the past but this is a whole new level. DH doesn't really understand and the lack of support from our management team has been shocking. Really not sure how long I can go on like this.
Another who completely understands.
Dd is 18 months. I had quite bad post natal anxiety, it's come back with force.
Dd was unwell last weekend, high temp and cough. Likely tonsillitis again as she has had it before. I got antibiotics but was so sick. Couldn't breathe, didn't eat for three days, couldn't sleep.
I'm taking her temperature about forty times a day.
Feel jumpy and scared.
I have battled with extreme health anxiety on and off for over a decade. Thought Covid would send it through the roof. It's probably staying under control because of the daily figures and the clear reporting of symptoms. It terrifies me, but because we went into isolation and have worn masks if we've needed to go to supermarkets and stuff, I felt very much like we'd protected ourself. But for the past four days I've been in the hospital with DD, emergency appendectomy. Now I can feel the panic kicking in, because I can hear the staff talking at night about the people dying on the floor beneath ours, and how many new admissions they're getting for Covid and how they're so worried that they're picking it up from other staff in the corridors, or just droplets in the air. Scared they can't avoid it and are spreading it in their ward without knowing. Talking about Covid patients being brought in by their families and then the family members wandering over to the one in, one out costa on site without a thought in their head for anybody. If it wasn't so quiet, I wouldn't be able to hear them. Definitely needed to bring DD in but very aware both of us have now some possibility of having been exposed, so that's starting to panic me
I have to keep taking days away from it all, no tv, no internet (or just stick to watching funny videos etc) as I'm finding it harder to control my anxiety. I've suffered with depression, anxiety, and agoraphobia for most of my life, with periods of doing well. I'm used to being cooped up but this is something on a new level even for me. I live alone, no friends or family but my heart really goes out to anyone with any family as you all have extra to worry about.
I'm lucky in that I get my meds delivered weekly, have done for about 10 yrs now. Just as this was all starting I had mental health support workers coming in a view to getting me back out again. So they are no longer coming obviously, so I haven't seen anyone for about 6 weeks now except to say thank you through the door to my lovely pharmacy delivery chap. I haven't heard from the NHS so assumed I wasn't bad enough to be on the shielded list even though if I catch this, I'm not going to survive. I spoke to my GP surgery after getting advice from the helpline, and my GP was surprised I hadn't heard from them as he said as far as he was aware I am on the list. I have heart disease, 2 heart attacks, stents, heart failure at a point that I can't have any surgery at all, not even a simple hernia op I need as I won't survive an operation or intubation, I constantly battle pulmonary oedema (fluid in lungs). Plus I have a few other things on the vulnerable list so the GP's class me as extreme risk. This is what's causing me the most anxiety, not the dying, I've accepted that will happen at some point, but that if I don't hear from the shielded list, will I have to just go about things like others. When construction is allowed to start again for example, my landlord is doing major renovations to my block and I'll have to move out for a couple of days. So I'm getting more anxious, which raises my heart rate, which causes more anxiety trying to keep it down as I don't want a 3rd heart attack, which leads to me self catastrophising, which leads to more anxiety. A vicious circle.
I've managed to get a shopping slot for the end of this month, that will have been 2 months between shopping. I'm lucky that I'd already got loads of instant noodle and soups, so I have food, no nutrients but far more lucky than a lot of people.
I've rambled on sorry, but one reason I have to take days away from the news/internet is that I find my getting more anxious because others are, my brain seems to think that's how I should feel, so it does, if that makes sense. This is no reflection on anyone else, it's just the way my daft brain has always been.
I hope all of you, stay safe, and well, and that this nightmare ends sooner than later for all of you.
I know this is an old thread.
I've just found out that I've been in close contact with several people who have had positive tests and I'm really struggling.
Too scared to get a test myself. Watching my body constantly for signs and symptoms.
My anxiety is caused by ds. Every day is a struggle, he's very, very difficult to live with .
Hope you are having a better day @OnTheMoors
Thankyou, that's very kind. There is so much schoolwork to do and the topics are interesting and well presented . Just need a pupil !
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