Knock Knock - Hello girls can I pop back in for a bit please?
Barbie nice to see an old face on here even if it is a bit tear stained hon.. Miss you tons and sending a hug for you.. xx
Mermaid where you at? It feels like the girls I started this journey with are dissapearing Iv not been on for a while cos I feel like Im being left behind a bit in the progress stakes, very 'groundhog day'... Im guessing you feel the same my lovely?
Annie Thinking of you today sweetheart - sending sticky thoughts of hope to you..
Mrskate and Joos I deeply sympathise with the BFN. Me too.
I also convinced myself i was pG, as had done loads of bd, felt very hormonal, crampy last week, big boobs but 2 BFN mon & tues. . Really sunk me down very low, as we now only have 2 more attempts under our treatment. Feeling quite desperate and devestated, all I want is to be a mum, so so so badly. I always speak too soon & now really worried I wont fall in next 2 cycles. Also v worried that maybe eggs are being fertalised but not allowed to stick by my stupid condition and that the cramps last week and ultra heavy AF Iv had recently maybe v v early mc? Over analyzing as usual. I just hate the fact that I was always the super positive, glass half full, rosy tint specs wearing gal with a smile no matter what. This has ripped out my heart and my soul and it takes every ounce to be 'normal' and keep on going. I miss me.
It didnt help that mon was our (getting together) anniversary & me & DH had this week off, back to work today for me, so had already planned it all out, find out I was PG and put feet up basically! Instead, last fri, poor DH broke his right hand at work so cant do anything, so spent all week off v unconstructive (nothing done in house/garden/socially) & i ended up doing all cooking, cleaning ect as poor DH cant! We are very much a team usually & he does more than his share, so this is a all bit of a shock to the system for me..! In work today then off tomorrow to take him to hand clinic tomorrow, he might have to have it pinned so back up the day surgery unit only this time for him not me! I had 4 ERPC in 11 months there so I know them all sadly.
Anyway, the bloody bitch AF aint even here yet so no doubt to add to to my current joy I'll prob end up with a 35 day cycle so I have even longer to wait til next time.. Also wanted to say how crap about girls who 'dont realise' they are PG . My ex manager was 3m before she 'realised' and she has my edd. The 3 PG here are all massive and I try and fight my . Mt PG friend Iv not seen properly since I MC, she is due 2 weeks after I was in Sept. Her & ex manager seem to have a slightly superior smugness to me now & certain insensitive comments are made that i think they do know they are making. I do feel very alone right now, as said even on here, girls I started this with are long gone, everyones moving on but me.
Sorry so and for mega ramble. Making up for the last week.