Tweakers help please?!

[User43210]

Hi all,

Swore I wouldn't be this anxious but after an awful experience with a MMC this year which just never seemed to end, I'm now just desperate for baby #1. I'm also devastated at the possibility I may have Ashermans (2x D&C, shorter AF, lots of pain in Luteal phase now)

What do you think to this test?? Possibly very, very faint but I'm thinking I'm not fully out yet? 10/11DPO. I will test again (probably daily) but just wanted some other expert eyes.

Thanks x

[Mum637k]

I don't want to give you false hope but I do see a faint blue line!! fingers crossed it gets darker! 💐

[zaffa]

I see it clearly! Good luck op xx

[User43210]

@Mum637k don't worry I'm used to it. Last month I had a faint blue line on a Tesco one and then nothing after, so now I'm constantly worried if it was a chemical or a dodgy test (it had been in the bathroom cupboard for a couple of months so wondered if that was something to do with it) I thought so, now just hoping this is a working test and won't be chemical!
Thanks for agreeing, the more I look, the more I'm certain I see a line, although tests aren't meant to be interpreted after a certain time period. I wanna hold off getting hubby involved for a little bit so he doesn't end up on an emotional rollercoaster with me, too. It'll also stop me going overboard with what ifs

[User43210]

Thanks @zaffa eekk! Fingers crossed for progression!!

[zaffa]

I really hope this is it for you OP. Please keep us updated x

[User43210]

Well ladies, I just did an frer after a 4.5 hour hold and last cycle I wasn't 100% whether I could see a line but today - there is a faint but very certain line! Now fingers crossed that it continues to develop!!!! Thanks for your help and reassurance Xxx

[User43210]

I also don't know why the line disappears in photos but is clear in real life! The second photo shows it better I think.

I will wait a few days (if possible) and do another test xx

[zaffa]

I can see your line OP!

[User43210]

@zaffa yey! Let's hope they stay now

I couldn't resist and told dh tonight instead of in a different way. Although getting a few slightly nasty pains this evening so just hoping it's my stupid body up to it's usual aches and pains and not a bad sign!

Time will tell x

[TheFoz]

Congratulations @User43210

[User43210]

Thanks @TheFoz

[User43210]

@Mum637k @zaffa @TheFoz

Absolutely no doubt to finish this post off.

Have a lovely weekend! X

[hopeforlucky3]

@User43210 congratulations

[User43210]

@hopeforlucky3 thank you!!! now comes the months of worry (my anxiety is so bad and last time I was proven right!) but not letting that overshadow my current happiness. X

[mintyt]

Congratulations, try not to worry too much

[zaffa]

I'm so happy for you! Congrats. Come and talk to us when the anxiety gets bad. I had an awful pregnancy - not because anything was ever actually wrong but I was terrified every day about everything. Scans were awful - I burst into tears at the last one because the consultant had mentioned in passing that her head circumference was growing faster than he expected so he wanted them to recheck it as he thought it was wrong (it was - the sonographer had to spend ages showing me my healthy 37w DD while I cried). Naturally I took that to mean all sorts and nothing in he said could reassure me - DH refers to pregnancy as one of the hardest times of our marriage. No one can ever allay your fears but I found talking about it often helped - especially people I didn't know. So any time you're worried or anxious, come and talk to us for a hand hold OP. x

[User43210]

Thank you both!

@zaffa your support just made me teary- maybe a little emotional I spent my last one worrying then had an early scan and was okay, saw a heartbeat, but still went on thinking "anything can happen" fast forward a month and a half and find at my 12 week scan that my baby had stopped growing at 9 weeks but was still in there. I've never felt grief like that, I had been walking around three weeks with a baby with no heartbeat, and had to for four more days. I then had the worst ordeal with operations and all that. Which doesn't help calm the anxiety but all I'm telling myself is that if I miscarry, there's nothing I can do to stop it. And anxiety will only make things worse. That, and book in a hundred private scans for reassurance thanks so much for your support! And here's hoping for a speedy 8 weeks and to be at least out of the danger zone xx

[zaffa]

That must have been heart breaking do talk to your midwife - mine was amazing and whenever I was overwhelmed by it all she would calm me down and talk me through things. Not once did anyone make me feel foolish for my concerns - I went in for reduced movements three times because I just wasn't sure and each time DD was absolutely fine! But once you get an idea in your head you can't get rid of it I found.

My biggest regret is that I didn't enjoy pregnancy more - I was always scared if I relaxed then something would go wrong so I was on constant guard. But that's just our anxieties speaking - so if it gets overwhelming tell the midwives what's happening and they can help even with just someone to talk it through with.

Roll on the next eight weeks! xx

[User43210]

@zaffa so happy to hear it all went well in the end. Definitely hope I enjoy it more but easier said than done. I had my early scan more because I had pains and was paranoid for an ectopic.

It was annoying because we did a 60-90minute booking appt with the midwife and I spent Christmas and New Year sober and with awful nausea and sickness just to find out the baby hadn't even made it to that point. Not exactly the worst thing in the world but still a bit frustrating.

I'll definitely be letting the midwife know after everything I've been through since with the hospital as well. Hopefully they'll sort me out a reassurance scan but it's not likely with only one MC and happy to sort it myself for peace of mind.

[zaffa]

Did you have counselling after the miscarriage? It's a terrible thing to process alone without help.

I hope things run smoothly with this one - I was very sick in my first trimester and that is probably the only time I wasn't anxious because I was far too sick to focus on anything but me! Although fingers crossed you don't suffer too much as it would be awful over the summer months!

[User43210]

I didn't but I did have a lot of support from friends and family. A lot of people knew already as it's impossible to hide when you look awful every day because the nausea is all-consuming.

Thanks! Although I always said I didn't mind the nausea if it meant a little one at the end. That failed last time but I have the same sentiments this time. At least I can mask it as heat stroke if lockdown eases and I see anyone xx

[zaffa]

TMI WARNING ...

The nausea is the awful, the vomiting was awful, there was one incredibly dreadful day where I vomited so much and so hard I ended up wetting myself slightly and DH found me sobbing on the bathroom floor distraught. He thought something much worse had happened so was very relieved when between big gulping sobs I managed to explain my embarrassment (luckily I was at home at the time). It certainly distracted me from any other anxieties during the first trimester!

I do hope your morning sickness is nowhere near as bad!

[zaffa]

PS - I didn't know it at the time(how much I could possibly love her) but DD is the light of my life and absolutely worth that moment and all the other embarrassing awful moments I went through.

[Mum637k]

@User43210 yayy that's amazing!! So happy for you congratulations 💐

[User43210]

@zaffa I remember the nausea well. I remember a dog walk where I ran off and was sick in a bush! Oh no how awful for you but at least it's in the past and you have DD now.

@Mum637k thank you!!!