Is it all in my head? (And intro to me)

[Leanne0215]

Hello, I'm new to this page so please go easy on me.
I'm Leanne, I'm 29 and been TTC for almost 9 years (2 different partners, at different times obviously lol). About 6 years ago after numerous tests, I was diagnosed with endometriosis, but apart from that, nothing is stopping me from getting pregnant that they could find. Been with current partner over 3 years, neither of us had any children and we have never full on TTC as before it didnt do good with mental health and OH didnt want me getting like that, but we have never not tried either.

Right now I've got past the boring stuff about me, I will tell you what's going on right now.

So, basically, I am now days late. AF was due on the 8th. Due to my endo, I have missed full months before and my cycles can be all over the place but I'd say the last time I actually missed a month was over a year ago.

No I haven't tested yet, as we dont want to get hopes up too much but have agreed we shall test on Friday if AF dont show by then. We are both off Friday so I have a full day to come to terms with whatever the result will be! (Plus we both work in a shop and Thursday night will be the only time we can pick up a test without any work colleagues seeing).

Here's my symptoms and I also have reasons as to why I could be getting them too, I've questioned myself so much recently. (sorry if TMI)..
• slight spotting (was more like old blood and the probably a little bit no bigger than a pea in my underwear, nothing on toilet paper)
• sooo tired
• I'm really (sorry) wet. Like I keep thinking I've come on yet it's more like I've wet myself (defo havent haha)
• nausea and really watery mouth like I'm going to throw up
• I did have really sore boobs where they felt bruised but now it's just my nipples that are sore
• I literally cannot stand the smell or taste of chocolate, and chocolate is usually my biggest downfall of all time but no easter eggs for me this year!!!
• and obviously NO AF!!!

I'm so sorry for the long winded post and I appreciate anyone who is still here after it haha. Is it just my symptoms and no af that's playing with my mind? Could it just be the stress and worry of what's happening around the world right now that's on my mind causing my body to act like it is? And wow can I ramble on Haha. Thanks everyone 😊

[2020wish]

Those symptoms sound positive to me :) but I guess we will never know for sure until you test. Good luck x

[Chlo2701]

They do sound like pregnancy symptoms hun. & chocolate!!... you've gone off chocolate!!! There's definitely something not right there🤣🤣 don't mean to joke, just trying to make light of a situation!! If I was in your shoes I would do a test ASAP. Keeping my fingers crossed for you 🤞🏻🤷‍♀️🤞🏻xx

[LFH1990]

All sounds good, definitely let us know what happens when you test 🤞

[Leanne0215]

I will do, thank you.. I just keep thinking of other reasons that I could be getting these symptoms, alot has happened over the last month so it could just all be stressed related (although I really dont feel stressed, I feel better than ever actually haha)...

And I know, chocolate of all things!!! I usually crave it, especially when I'm due on, the thought of alot of foods make me queasy but chocolate is the only thing I've not been able to even stomach!

I was serving at work today and my mouth was so watery like I was going to be sick, trying to smile and be happy with customers and all the time thinking, please dont, please dont! Luckily I didn't, but even one of my work friends said shes noticed I'm feeling sick alot recently! I dont even tell people hahah xxx

[cookielove]

How can you make US wait till Friday!!!

We need to know!!!

[Leanne0215]

We literally cannot get a test till Thursday night when we are both on the close. And with the situation at the minute, there is no 'popping' into another shop for one lol..

On a lighter note, my nausea has gone away first time all day Haha 😊😊😊

[Leanne0215]

UPDATE
Had a little bit of pink bleeding when I wiped late last night. Woke up to nothing and had nothing since, not even a smidge. It wasnt alot and I havent had any cramping or anything like I usually do when AF is about to show (cos of my endo, I get in so much pain a few days before I come on) xxx

[2020wish]

Could be implantation

[Leanne0215]

I've had nothing since. Our shop hasn't any tests left at all!!!!! Hope we get a delivery tomorrow xxx

[ShinyBadger]

I would say you sound like you possibly could be, how amazing if you are.
Good luck x

[HelloTerrance]

They sound like my early symptoms. Wishing you so much luck!

[Hotpinkangel19]

Sounds possible. Good luck!

[emvy]

All sounds hopeful - good luck! Not long to go now until you test.

[Leanne0215]

I'm so hoping we get a delivery of tests in tomorrow! If not it means queuing for hours outside a chemist or the bigger supermarket near us.

The bleed last night has really confused me. I've never had anything like that before, but if it was implantation, surely that would have happened already with me being 2 weeks late?? Xxx

[Leanne0215]

WE HAVE A TEST!!!
Will do it in the morning, had to get a clear blue one as that's all that came on the delivery xxx

[LAG1986]

@Leanne0215 even I'm excited after reading this and it's not me!!! Haha. I so hope you get a positive result. Will be back in morning to check. Sending tons of good luck to you. Xx

[Chlo2701]

I think you probably are @Leanne0215 have you got any more symptoms? 🤞🏻 good luck for tomorrow!! X

[Leanne0215]

I was sick earlier after feeling quite queasy for a bit but I think it was just nerves as it was just after my oh got me the test lol xxx

[jazzibelle]

@Leanne0215 I've been checking back on this post for updates and just want to say that I'll be thinking of you for tomorrow. Whatever the result is: be kind to yourself, and know it will be ok . I think I speak for everyone when I say we're all rooting for you here!

[Juno231]

Spotting is very normal in pregnancy btw so don't worry too much about that! Got my fingers crossed for you, can't wait to hear the results!

[motherofdinosau]

Look forward to seeing an update in the morning!!
Hope you Sleep well 😴 xx

[2020wish]

@Leanne0215 how did you get on x

[GetTheSprinkles]

Fingers crossed for you x

[Leanne0215]

Sorry ladies, was called into work. Got bfn this morning. I expected it, had a few tears but life must go on. Just really gutted as I actually thought I was this time xxxx

[jazzibelle]

@Leanne0215 so sorry to hear this. Pick up some treats for yourself after work and have a self-care night. Hugs!