Need a distraction..

[ThreeAfter30]

So its now cd33, another bfn this morning with fmu using a frer. Ive finally accepted the fact that im not pregnant so i just want af to show up now so i can get on with the next cycle. But apparantly my body hates me cause i feel pregnant. Im shattered despite having a great nights sleep. Could actually lie down on my desk at work and have a snooze. Lower tummy/pelvic area feels so weird&had done from yesterday, kindve like someones blowing a balloon from the inside. Ive got backache (i get this alot anyway).
I feel like a mad woman!!
Anyone else wanna join me in my misery/frustration/confusion? Lol

[Binkyboo16]

I feel your frustration here currently CD 40 with negative tests so I refuse to do anymore more until the end of next week! I've always had irregular cycles so don't even know if/when I'm ovulating any chance you may have ovulated later and not realised?
Fingers crossed for you! Xx

[ThreeAfter30]

Awww @Binkyboo16 irregular cycles are the worst! My cycles the past few months have been between 25-27 days, had a 30day one at xmas so i really have no idea when i ov. Myself and my oh have not been 'actively trying', its been more a case of if it happens it happens and we'll both be happy about it. What cycle is this for u?
I had a colposcopy&biopsy on cd19, so didnt bd again until almost 2 weeks afterwards to let it heal. We bd on cd17 and a few times before that so im assuming if i got preg on cd17 id be showing positive by now? Its all so confusing isnt it.
Fingers crossed we both get the results we want xx

[Boomerang456]

Very similar situation here- Currently on CD31 but but this is about 5 days late for me usually... 3 negative tests though. Driving myself a little crazy with all the wondering!
AF was a few days early last month and lasted longer so am wondering if everything is a bit later this month... I totally feel your pain OP!

[ThreeAfter30]

@Boomerang456 im starting to think i didnt ov at all this month. Sorry for tmi but i had a blob of snotlike cm last week just for 1 day, cant figure out what it means lol.
When did you last test?

[Boomerang456]

I was wondering the same thing- although I did some EWCM later than expected... Not tracking ovulation at the moment though.
Last did a test a few hours ago!

I have had a bit of spotting these last couple of days, but that's been it

[ThreeAfter30]

It would drive you up the wall wouldnt it! I have had zero spotting which is extremely unusual for me, i usually spot for a day or 2 before af arrives and so far nothing. This whole ttc lark is defo not straightforward lol. What cycle is this for you?

[Boomerang456]

Not straightforward at all! Constantly asking 'but what does it MEAN??!'

I'm only really on cycle 2 of 'properly trying', so I know that's not very long. It's just really annoying that now that we have started trying, my body seems be doing all these weird things to confuse me! Which cycle are you on?

[Binkyboo16]

I'm not actively trying either, I had my daughter last year and went back on the pill for a month in January but it messed so badly with me I had to come back off it. We're thinking of properly trying again at the end of the year but I'm using this time to get used to my cycles (not going well) and learning how to track cervix position and cervical mucus but like you if it happens we will be over the moon :) my last few cycles have been cd17, cd 45, cd75 and now cd 40 with no show of af!
As they say you're not out until af shows so id test once a week until she does, could be that you did ovulate later than normal :)
Good luck ladies xx

[Cookie1831]

CD 51 here a millionth BFN this morning feeling all your pain don't even mind not being pregnant right now just want to get back to CD1 this never ending cycle is driving me mad!

[ThreeAfter30]

@Boomerang456 we arent properly trying, just letting whatever happens happen so as not to stress ourselves, but sure heres me anyway, almost baldy from pulling my hair out in frustration, this idea has clearly worked well lol though this is the first time af is late so bit hard not to be confused. Our bodies clearly hate us 😂

@Binkyboo16 wow they are some long cycles, poor you!! Have you spoken to your doc about anything you could do to regulate your cycles? Ive heard angus castus is meant to be good for that. Fingers crossed for you xx
Last time we bd before i had my colposcopy was cd17 and funnily enough cd17 was when i got preg with both of my dcs (wasnt actively trying with either of them but knew exactly when id caught as hadnt bd much). With both of them i didnt test til cd35 so ive no idea if i would even have got a bfp before that. Xx

@Cookie1831 thats how i feel too. Im being so snappy at dp cause i cant think of anything else. God love him lol.

I do think af is on her way soon though, my back is in agony and i went to toilet during the night convinced id took af as it was so sore and so was my tummy. But nothing. Ill probably take it in work today.

Dp has said he'll buy me more tests for fri if af hasnt came by then but i honestly dont think ill need them.

[ThreeAfter30]

Quick update girls..i bought a cb half hour ago and i dont know whether im going mad but i can see a really really faint squinter of a line. It wont even show up in a pic tho (pulling my hair out here!!)

[Boomerang456]

Wow, that's exciting! (Dare I say it) another test??

Fingers crossed for everyone!

I appear to be out as AF seems to have decided to show up- lighter than usual though just to keep messing with me! Been feeling really rough all day too....At least we can hopefully get on with the next cycle now though.

Really feel for you guys with the long cycles- such torture having to wait so long

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

Hi@ThreeAfter30 same here - CD32 and negative tests but possibly got a squinter on a CB just now. Will you test again in morning?

[ThreeAfter30]

@Boomerang456 aw no way 😔 has it turned into full blown af? Wouldnt be ib would it?
Showed OH the line from earlier and he could see it too so i did another one at dinnertime and again can see the faintest of lines. We actually sat and pulled the tests apart to get another look. Im gonna get some more tomorrow&test thurs morning with fmu. Would send OH to get some now to use in morning but hes got my ds with him and i cant go anywhere cause dd is in bed.

@TheGrumpySquirrel i can see a line! thats how mines looks too but it doesnt show up on pics ffs. What cd are you on?

[ThreeAfter30]

Sorry squirrel just noticed you already said cd32. Are you late?

[Boomerang456]

Yep, pretty sure it's AF- been getting heavier through the day and is red blood, so I guess it's either that or possible chemical pregnancy
Another go on the merry-go-round then!

Looking very promising for you though, and squirell! Good luck!

[Cookie1831]

Oh squirrel I hope so!
I am getting bloods and a scan, CD52 here boobs are sore but they have been for days and BFN I am trying to hold out wasting another test until Friday x

[ThreeAfter30]

Awww @Boomerang456 sorry to hear that 😔big hugs xx
@cookie1831 poor you!! When are you getting bloods&scan done?

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

I've done a FRER and it's negative so I don't trust those CB tests 😢

Yes I'm late now. Usually 30 day cycles

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

And AF is here.. last time I ever buy any blue dye test

[ThreeAfter30]

Awww squirrel im so sorry to hear that 😔😔 hope youre ok xx

[Cookie1831]

Sorry squirrel x

[ThreeAfter30]

Binkyboo16 how are you getting on?xx

[Binkyboo16]

Sorry for the late reply, af has arrived in full force today so that's CD45 which is okay as it gives me a date to go by I guess. Think I may start opk's this month as my and oh have agreed to just go for it how did you get on any darker tests? :) xxx

[ThreeAfter30]

Aw sorry to hear that but also glad that at least you know where you stand this month. Still no af for me, bfn yesterday and have been cramping for days now, spot of brown in my cm this morning and tiny bit after a wee but thats it so af must be on her way. Like urself i think ill just be relieved when it shows up so i can get on with it. We have decided to go for it too so gonna get opks also. Im cd39 now so hopefully wont have towait much longer before im on cd1 😊 good luck for this cycle😘 xx