I'm mc-ing now please help!

[WhiteWolf]

I am 5 weeks pregnant, I had a chemical pregnancy recently and now things are not looking good. My hcg was 450 monday. I'm on cyclogest and progynova and I had very mild cramps yesterday evening with very subtle brown spotting. Today's hcg in the morning was 619. Today I had more brown discharge and more cramps, it all increased as the day passed and now I have what looks like redder blood and stronger cramps. I know what is happening, I know I'm loosing it and I can't take it. The nurse told me to take it easy and wait until tomorrow to take more bloods. What do I do?

[CarrotVan]

I'm so sorry - I went through a 6 wk miscarriage a few week ago so I know a bit of you're feeling.

I know it sounds hard but there's really nothing you can do other than rest and try to look after yourself. Do you have anyone with you or anyone you can call?

[WhiteWolf]

Thanks CarrotVan my partner's coming from work soon. I haven't told anyone… I just keep thinking 'how am I going to survive work this week' :(
I can't not go, I have a massive presentation for my project and can't pick myself up… :(

[EssexMummy123]

i don't think there's anything you can do to prevent this, but maybe worth a call to your nearest early pregnancy unit, they will have an out of hours number and someone you can speak to.

[Singsongsung]

I think you need to be kind to yourself. If you had an illness you'd be off work and miss that presentation. What you're going through is both physical and mental. Work is work. That's all. Take the time off. Look after yourself x

[sizethree]

How are you feeling today.

[WhiteWolf]

Sizethree thanks for asking and thanks all for your advice. The bleeding and pain stopped completely the day after and even now there is no bleeding whatsoever. I did get up for work and tried the 'fake it till you make it' approach and survived these two days. I just got my HCG levels back and dropped significantly to 200 so Dr told me the pregnancy is failing and will miscarry for sure. I am broken! I feel so sad. Mu partner wants to take a break from TTC because he thinks it's too much for my since I had a stillbirth at 32 weeks last year. I just feel really sad :(

[Beansprout30]

Oh no you've really been through it, so sorry please take care of yourself and if you have to take a break from work, do it x

[LolaStarr]

I'm so sorry you're going through this after you have already had so much to deal with. I recently lost my little one at 21 weeks so I can sympathise. Huge hugs

[sizethree]

Oh whitewolf you've been through so much, my heart goes out to you, it is just so unfair.
You and your partner will find a right time to try again once you're a bit further along in the recovery of this awful shituation (no, that's not a typo - it's a word I made up).
Wishing you lots of strength to get through these next few days and a little note that kept me going at tough times:
'everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not yet the end.'
Big hugs.

[WhiteWolf]

Lola I'm really sorry for your loss. I send you a big hug!
Beansprout, work is the only thing that keeps me alive at this point, without my profession I have nothing, I feel really empty.
Siezethree thanks for your beautiful words, so nice to read from lovely people. Going through loss is such a lonely path, it's difficult to find people to talk to that can understand. x

[CarrotVan]

I'm so sorry whitewolf. Please try to tell someone at work so they can take a bit of the pressure off if you don't want to take time off.

[Singsongsung]

Really feel for you. I've been there as well and know how hard it is. Look after yourself