Hi all
Popping in to say hi on thread 14. Hope this one brings some much deserved better luck to everyone.
Sar lovely Sar, do hang in there. The end of the 2ww is the worst. You know the symptoms or not are just there to mess with your head. I doubt there's a woman in the country going through IVF who hasn't had those feelings of despair. Joy is right, it's so hard to be positive as you would have so far to crash if you were wrong. I was convinced mine hadn't worked - with my successful IVF cycle I had virtually no symptoms apart from chronic period pain , whereas the cycle I miscarried I had textbook symptoms from the start. It's just crap. But it's not over yet, as other folks have said - and if this cycle doesn't pan out there will be a future plan for you. Time is on your side. Hugs and .
Euro my mc was just as you described - one really bad day then like a particularly gory period - so i am hopeful you're over the worst. A lovely holiday sounds just the thing. I'm loving all the talk of Italy. I've only been briefly for work trips but it was a revelation, definitely on the list for the future.
Joy oh my god step away from the baby shops. Books bought online are a good idea, or how about some good quality body moisturiser or body oil? You're being so brave but you don't need to torture yourself! The holiday sounds a brilliant idea, some time away with Roy to relax and be together will do you lots of good.
Gin I don't understand the thing about the dr expecting a dominant follie so soon. I never had that until later in my cycle either and without intervention I would normally ov around CD17/18. Another vote for the doc's twonk status. And at the dildo cam tantrum. I've had a few of those. "I'll just pop a condom on my probe" is a phrase no woman should ever have to hear.
Pout what a brilliant result with the embies. Excellent news! Will be thinking of you tomorrow for ET. I've had similar rants at MrA when he's moaned at the indignity of spaffing on demand. I told him Doll's tale about Ken having to produce the goods in a toilet next to the nurse's station in the hope he would appreciate his good fortune, but no. It's a good job men don't have to do IVF, he would have spent 6 weeks lying on the couch expecting to be waited on like a consumptive Victorian maiden with sideburns .
Buzz I've got the cold and chest thing too. Woke up on Tuesday sounding like the secret love child of Mariella Frostrup and Barry White. I should stop telling people it's the Capstans, I'm getting some funny looks . Exciting that you are getting close to your DE cycle.
Critter well done on the panda ovulation. Sounds like you got the timing right so everything crossed... two weeks is long enough that you will be able to test before starting the IVF cycle. Am hopeful for you. Such long cycles sound like a nightmare but if all else is OK there's no reason why you shouldn't get pg when you do ov.
Sea the unexplainedness is rubbish. It still bugs me even though IVF worked that I don't know what was wrong. And I put off IVF for ages because I wanted to find a reason why it wasn't working naturally. Perhaps one of the problems with outcome focused medicine is i didn't feel the doctor was remotely interested in finding the cause, he just pushed us towards IVF, but it did feel like we might be using a very expensive sledgehammer to crack a nut. It is rubbish that you lose your NHS round by going private. The inconsistency between PCTs makes no sense. We paid because at age 38 the 12-month waiting list was too long but we would still have been entitled to one NHS round if it hadn't worked.
Rabbit the FSH numbers fluctuate so please don't see your result as a bad thing. You qualify for NHS IVF which is the main thing - they wouldn't let you cycle if they didn't think your chances were good as they wouldn't want you dragging down their stats [cynic emoticon]. Paw holds for you.
Free it's utter bollocks about the clinic phones being off. This thing about fertility clinics only working office hours (or not even that) does my head in. Fingers crossed this is your time.
Madness hurrah for the final downregging injection, hopefully the hot flushes etc will start to subside. Onward and upward for stimming.
Nelly at mocking MrN's DIY skills. Mr A doesn't have any but even so doesn't like it when I question his helicopter-like approach to a paintbrush.
All OK here. Joy something you said the other day really resonated, I think it was about not being able to get excited about pregnancy when you've gone through so much to get there. That's definitely how I feel. I'm 19 weeks today, which feels like an impossible miracle, but only just beginning to tell people other than parents and very close friends and only then because I don't have a choice - I've managed to hide it pretty well, until the last few days I just looked like I've porked up a bit, but clients are starting to talk about work beyond July and I need to be honest. I still can't actually use the P word. My mum has been hassling me to tell people and can't understand why I'm not all excited but then she had 2 kids within 3 years of getting married and just doesn't get it. Anomaly scan next week and of course all I can think about is what might be wrong at this stage. It's stupid I know, and maybe when I start feeling kicks and looking a bit more obvious it will start to feel real, but for now, caution rules. I still skirt round the baby aisle and I've refused to let my poor overexcited mum buy anything. The whole long haul TTC/MC/endless prodding and poking/AC scenario has felt so personal and private and if I'm honest a little bit shameful that it's hard to shake those feelings now.
I'm sorry if it seems insensitive to air those feelings on here but I think only another 10plusser will really understand and it might also strike a chord with some of you when you get your long awaited BFPs on the spectacularly lucky thread 14
Friday afternoon waves and love to all, hope everyone has lovely weekends