Sadly no more babies, please hold my hand

[HaveToWearHeels]

We both agreed to stop TTC end of the year, AF turned up Christmas Day, so sadly that is the end of the road for me. I know it is the right decision but I still feel sad that I will never be pregnant again, or have another baby. Another thing I feel sad about is, that as a full time working Mum I will never have maternity leave off with DD1.
I had trouble concieving first baby whch I sadly lost to an ectopic, DD was concieved straight away and born 2009. Again it took a while to fall again and I lost 3rd baby in Jan this year. We discussed everything at length when I had my MMC in January and agreed to try until the end of the year, as I am coming up for 43.
I still agree with the decision we made, but I feel a bit like I am mourning the baby I will now never have

[SleighbellsRingInYourLife]

[tearsofrobertsmith]

I am holding your hand- I'm so sorry that you are not having another chance at pregnancy. Af arriving yesterday must have been terribly sad for you. Are you and your dp in full agreement about stopping? Sorry too to hear of your past losses.

[fairypangolin]

I am so sorry, I am in a similar situation and really feel for you. I only try to take comfort in my DS and his lovely smile, I hope you can do the same.

[fairypangolin]

I am so sorry, I am in a similar situation and really feel for you. I only try to take comfort in my DS and his lovely smile, I hope you can do the same although it is never enough, I know.

[HaveToWearHeels]

thanks ladies tears we are in full agreement. Then yesterday, I got all teary talking to a lady at a social event about her beautiful baby girl who was a much wanted IVF baby. DH suggested to one more try in January however I think this is just prolonging the agony.

[spudmurphy]

Thinking of you. Been there.