Starting my IVF journey

[Slainte]

I hope I'm posting this in the correct place.

I'm going for my baseline scan today and tomorrow I start my gonal-f injections.

Had a very blue day yesterday and today as I really thought I'd get pregnant naturally so have had to face the reality that that's not going to happen.

Don't really know what the point of my post is but felt I needed to say something to someone.

[ajandjjmum]

Wishing you good luck - hope this is the start of a very positive journey for you.

[lunar1]

Good luck, it's a tough journey but was worth it in the end for me.

[sarlat]

Hi

It will become easier as you move through the process, maybe even a little exciting. It is tough to accept that natural conception is less likely (but maybe not impossible). IVF is a new chapter which may be able to heal some of the pain.

Also IVF is still about getting pregnant naturally as sperm, eggs and a womb are needed. They can't magic babies out of thin air. Be proud of yourself for having the confidence and wisdom to move towards IVF with an open heart. It is hard to make that leap but you will never be left wondering what if and you will always know you did your best to become a mum. That is worth celebrating.

Also, IVF is another route to pregnancy, not just last chance saloon. It is worth a shot to see if it becomes the route for you. I assure you the pain of missing a natural conception does reduce.

I have had one failed fresh cycle of IVF and I'm currently in my 2ww following a frozen embryo transfer (from the same batch of the first cycle). It is a natural cycle (no drugs) and have been feeling positive - although in the last 2 hours have gone really wobbley.

Prior to the ivf i fell pregnant naturally 2.5 years a go and then miscarried. I struggled to conceive again after. Basically they found that my fallopain tubes are damaged, probably due to the miscarriage. I have struggled to come to terms with the fact that I was able to do it on my own easily and then life delt me this awful blow and took away my health and chances naturally. It has been so sad at times but I am also wiser for going through what I have. I am sure you will find comfort too.

Have a look at the ttc 10months + thread part 10. There are many of us in a similar place. We have many bad days but it feels great to know others know exactly what you mean.

Best of luck and hugs because I think you need them. Sarlat xxx

[Solars]

Oh Sarlat you've put down exactly what I would have liked to have written so beautifully! Good luck to you too in your 2ww x

Slainte I too have started my IVF journey! I have my baseline scan next Tuesday and then will hopefully be able to start on the menopur. It was initially hard to accept going down this route but both DH and I had decided that we have to embrace the opportunity with an open heart to give us the best chance of it working. All you can do is acknowledge the sadness you feel but I really hope you take on board the positive outcome that this route could end in. Wishing you all the best on your journey x

[Slainte]

Thank you all so much for replying .

sarlat everything crossed for you. You've written that post beautifully.

I already have a DD who is nearly two, she was conceived naturally the month before we were to start IVF the last time. I think I believed that would happen again. We've been trying since she was two months old and had one MC late last year at nine weeks .

I'm using the Freya at Wessex centre.

I really need to get my head and heart together. I think I might just have a good old cry this evening and let it all wash out of me, then start to look forward.

Solars good luck for you too.

[Slainte]

Just gave myself my first injection - much easier than I thought it'd be

[Pocket1]

Come join us on the assisted conception thread. You'll be in good company and never on your own.

[TheCatSofa]

Hi slainte
I'm in the same boat as you! Gave myself my first gonal-f injection this evening. Was alright after the initial freak out at the needle :)

I also found it hard to accept but now i have i'm finding it all quite exiting and enjoy being (hopefully) an example of the miracle of modern science.

Massive good luck vibes going out to you and everyone else.

let's keep updated about side effects

[MoJangled]

Hi Slainte and TheCatSofa , just to second Pocket's invitation to join us on the Assisted Conception thread. Lots of ladies going through what you're going through and ready with info, support and hand holds. Sarlat has already found her way there!

[Solars]

Glad the first injection wasn't as bad as you thought it would be Slainte and for you too TheCatSofa. Lots of positive vibes for the 2 of you!

[blondebaby111]

Hi slainte, me too! I start my inhaler drug on the 1st then few weeks later i start my injections. My moods go from being really excited to feeling really nervous and upset. Just yesterday when i recieved my medication i had a little cry. When i opened the box it was so daunting to see all the medication i had to take. I'm afraid i shouted out..this is so unfair and shouldn't be happening. I'm also slightly scared of the side effects. I got told my nasel inhaler tricks the brain into thinking its going through the change so i could get all the symptoms at first that go with that...nice!!

Good luck to you and anyone else on this thread going thru it xxx

[Beginningofthejourney]

I wasn't intending to post just having a look at the thread but I found this one and thought support for people in the same position might be good.
I'm due to start my 1st IVF cycle this week. Period is due at the end of the week so hopefully all systems go from then!
I'm finding it hard to know if I should tell people incase I'm emotional/stressy etc but don't want the pressure of loads of people knowing!
(sorry im not up with all the short hand yet)

[blondebaby111]

i must admit i have been telling quite a few people as i work for myself in the beauty industry as there will be times i can't work due to hosp appointments etc plus i don't know what the side effects are. I find it easier to talk about it than not to say anything but everyones different. The only snag with telling people is you get asked every 5 seconds are u pregnant yet which i can handle as i'm not ashamed but some people like to keep it private