waiting to ttc is making me very depressed, anyone else?!

[tiredcommuter]

I am desprate for a baby, absoultly deprate but DP wants to wait till Jan to start ttc because he has a DD and wants to wait till after she has started school.

I know this is understandable but he doesn't have to spend his life feeling like this!

I cry about it everyday, everytime I see a pregnant woman I just want to curl up, babies make me want to sob and even having lovely cuddles with DSD upsets me sometimes!

I am having threapy which does help a bit but my hormones are going mad! I am temp charting as birth control so I know my body better for when we start, I have quit smoking and have started yoga to get my body strong. I was hoping all of this would distract me but it only helped for a short time.

How do other people cope? I'm a big emotional mess and sometimes (although I wouldn't admit it out loud) I resent DP because he has a DD and its all I want in the world!

Sorry a bout bad spelling. Thanks

[Christelle2207]

Perhaps point out to dh that you may not conceive immediately - far too many of us have been lurking on here for months.

Failing that though you are right to get your body in order, this is the time to get yourself in the best shape possible.

Sorry not to be very helpful but best of luck when the time comes hopefully you will get pg more easily than us.

[tiredcommuter]

Thanks Christelle2207, I knew people on here will understand and I worry constantly that it could take ages.

Its just everyday, I wake up sad and I go to bed sad, I know a lot of people on here feel the same. Having a wonderful DSD makes it so much harder and I don't want my sadness at not having my own baby to ruin our relationship, she is lovely but everytime I look at her I think 'wheb is it my turn!' That probably sounds really selfish. I haven't even started ttc and in an emotional reck!

[kittykatsforever]

Maybe if you top your dp how you feel you could discuss starting to try now, after all relationships shouldn't be one sided and ttc doesn't always happen for a while anyway, atleast off you are trying it may take some pressure off

[iloveberries]

wow - you need to try and take this pressure off. if you are this emotionally entangled in TTC when you're not even TTC then you will find it horrific if you don't get a BFP in month 1.

what about just coming off contraception (with agreement from DP) but not 'actively trying' till Jan?

[tiredcommuter]

Hi,

I'm not taking any contraception, I have never been on the pill, we use temp charting as a natural birth control.

I don't really tell DP how I feel because I don't want to pressure him before he is ready. Not sure why he gets to decide, I guess because he has a DD and she comes first so its when he thinks she will be ready.

Its not just me right? Other people get like this? :) I know I need to get it out of my head for a while but its not so easy, I feel like its the only thing in the world I want.

I keep tring to think about how great it is that I have another 6 months to get my body ready, but you all right, what will I be like if it takes two years!

Thank you for your understanding