Too scared to test....

[SnowMiffles]

Ok. I know that if I saw any other thread like this I would just tell the OP to test. And I know I ought to. But over the year I have taken so many tests, as convinced myself I'm pg, and then BFN. So sick of looking at them, that I almost feel as if I'm being silly imagining I'm pregnant.

So instead I'm asking my MN friends if I am, because of course you'll know!!!

First month of clomid...my consultant has confirmed he thinks I ovulated - he reckons on CD13. But could of course be CD14 or 15. Anyway.

On CD27 had a BFN. And he told me to expect AF on about CD28. Which would be 14 or 15 days after ov.

It is now CD33. No AF. Had some spotting after JSing yesterday, but nothing more.

My boobs have been sore for well over a week now. Although less so today. And no other symptoms.

I know that it sounds like I could be pg. And I'm not being ridiculous to think it's likely. But having seen so many BFNs I can't bear to do another. But not sleeping due to thinking about it! DH has poor sperm, so that is why I think it's unlikely.

Thanks for reading my ramble and any kind of thoughts or comments would be great. My DH won't listen to me obsessing anymore!!!

[Starisonthetree]

Sorry my magic scanning wand is not working - you need to test

[blueberrysantabait]

Snow - I don't want to put a downer on the fact that you could be PG but on my first 2 cycles of clomid (tests showing ov)I had the same symptoms and my AF was late - I spent alot of time doing the am I, aren't I and worrying about it being either.

I wasn't but had all the symptoms, my AF arrived at cd36 and cd38 respectively.

I hope you are.

[SnowMiffles]

Thank you!!

Blueberry - that is probably what I needed to hear! I figured that if I'd definitely ov'd nearly 3 weeks ago, I couldn't work out why I'd not started. So to hear that you had long cycles too has put it in perspective.

[winterwombatland]

I am sooooo tempted to tell you to test, but have no experience of clomid so guess it's best to listen to someone who has. Please do post on here again if / when you do test - fingers, toes and other things all tightly crossed for you.

[blueberrysantabait]

Forgot to say the cycle I did conceive on I had absolutely no symptoms at all and was expecting AF at any moment - waited until I was at my latest before I tested.

[SnowMiffles]

Ok. I woke up this morning and couldn't bear having another day of knicker-checking. So tested. Another BFN. But thankfully DH looked at it for me, so I didn't actually see it!!

Still waiting for AF - where is it??!!! Nearly 3 weeks since I ovulated!!

Well, back to the drawing board....