I'm aware that I have been faffing on about my birth experience on lots of threads so before I drive everyone nuts I thought I would lump everything stressy together here and pleased for some advice, particularly as we are thinking about having more kids but the idea of having to endure this again brings me out in lumps.
I'm quite an old mum, having got pregnant at 37, but had a really good pregnancy, managing to stay active right up until week 37 (I was in a singing and dancing show up until wk 24 so I kept reasonably fit!) Unfortunately it all went a bit tits up after that - at week 37 I suddenly felt grim and started throwing up, put on four and a half stone and couldn't eat anything other than a bit of fruit every so often. My blood pressure went up but not that much, and although my lovely midwife referred me to the hospital they said I was OK and discharged me.
Then my nice midwife went on mat leave (well, I suppose they have to do it too!!) and I got a raving homebirth evangelist, who told me off for going to hospital and basically washed her hands of me, and told me late pregnancy was rough and just to stick it out, and that no way should I be induced. I rang her up at wk 40 saying I thought I was in labour - she told me if I only thought I was I wasn't (if you follow me) and to ring back when I was. 2hrs later went to hospital - consultant took one look, said OMG you have raving pre-eclampsia and induced me there and then, except that when she examined me I was 5.5cm dilated. Turned out I had double amniotic sac - poor ds trying to get out! - anyway, to cut long story short was given an epi to get my bp down (didn't work, although helped with contractions - and I COULD still feel all the relevant urges, which really surprised me), ds got totally stuck and after lots of dithering decided on cs, but once I was on the table ds decided was coming anyway and I had him with forceps and a massive episiotomy on the cs table.
Must say at this point that hospital mws were absolutely great and really supportive, and consultant also v supportive and kind.
DS went to SCBU although he was fine as I went into shock, had a massive pph and was taken to intensive care for several days. Line for blood transfusion cocked up and ended up with no use of left arm for 3 months. By the time I came back to the postnatal ward I had missed all the bf help and was left to muddle along on my own, eventually calling big sis in to help!
Well, we got there in the end so I guess all's well that ends well. My biggest problem was the attitude of the community mws afterwards (least helpful comment: "that's why we don't encourage epidurals") towards my whole mummy experience - I was generally made to feel that it had all been my fault and that if I had listened to their warnings about hospital births I would have had a happy breastfed little boy with no pain relief. We DID manage to establish bf in the end but my milk didn't come in for days and ds was not amused by this rubbish food I kept giving him. Eventually we started mixed feeding him at 3 months and he is now fully weaned at 9 (his choice, not mine!)
Anyway, I am just getting over the way I was made to feel about my feeding and birthing problems, and we are blessed with a fab boy who sleeps well, is very sunny and has switched from boob to bottle without a whimper from day one. We know we are very lucky. But - we must be mad - we want another one....
Trouble is, I don't want to go through all that again. I would rather not opt for an elective cs either - not after all the effort to have a vb. Added to which I can't give birth at the same hospital - the consultant units at that and a lot of the local hospitals have been converted to GP/midwife units that won't take me (thanks, NCT!!!) and most of the ones that do have consultant units have a catchment area policy that I don't fit into.
So - where can I have my next one, if I ever have sex again, and what steps can I take to avoid the same hassles? All advice very gratefully received!
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Bad first birth but considering another....advice please!!
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Polina · 02/03/2005 20:09
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