Anyone out there who gave birth about this time? My DS was born at 3am on 12 July 2006 and I am sitting here now (while he and DH snore) remembering it all. In less than an hour it will be 731 days since I first saw his face and heard him scream. Not the last time for either
Just wondered if anyone else was in the same situation - sitting in the dark, alone, counting my blessings at the wonderful, crazy, rollercoaster world of being a Mum!
I think most mothers remember it more than anything else. My mum still remembers my brother's birth and he is 41 in a couple of days time (she didn;t give birth to me). I find myself thinking every year at the end of the summer, well, this was when I started realising that it was really real, this was the Last Time of something or other, that was the day I thought I was going into labour but didn't.... I expect those bits will dwindle out of my memory in time but actual labour-and-birth bit will be with me till I die.
It was the most alive I've felt I think. And I was soooo tired, but somehow it's imprinted vividly. I remember turning my head, and biting down on the gas and air tube, and the wierd shape of my tummy as he left it, and him moving his little arms and legs when they put him on my tummy, trying to crawl up to the breast!
Except that strangely large amounts of our memory is of course obscured. People talk of the pain of childbrith but you do not remember it in a true sense, you have your internal narrative but no image. iyswim.
Oddly [maybe] I remember more of evetns with more clarity of second born. I was caught up with internalising with first I think...
It is a moment to feel strong isn't it? Certainly not for all I admit. But if you are lucky and things go well, it is one of the most empowering things that you can feel. Yet something that has no bearing on acomplishment. In that it really isn't a matter of being 'good' at giving birth, sure you can try thiongs but in the end you are lucky or not and can't study or practise.
And still it is incredibly satisfying if you are lucky.
Well, that's funny, because my birth was nothing like Sushi says at all. My DS was an emergency c-section, he had a cord prolapse and only his hand could be felt - big time fuss, lots of staff, all very ER - and I could not have been LESS psychologically prepared for that!! but in it's own way still wonderful!
In the end, it's meeting the little people isn't it?!?
yy of course there are things which help, not only pyschologically preparation but just knowledge! knowing positions to tr, knowing your options and rights and feeling in control is a large part of it being empowering however your birthing ends up.
I have been thinking of this a lot today as my SIL is in labour right now. (or I hope she is, she was induced at 4pm and we have not heard anything) It got me thinking about the birth of my DCs.
DD was the most difficult and wonderful thing that I had ever experienced.
DS was less wonderful, a emergency CS.
A friend of mine sent me a txt today, she summed it up, the feelings I have
"My children will always be the biggest wonders on earth for me, my most loved monsters, the greatest presents God was gracious enough to give me... So I should better sing and dance with joy than spend my time worrying"
I cant sleep tonight, I am a bit excited for DB and SIL.
In case any of you look back at this thread! (1) Sushistar - I was up working too - work from home, only time I get peace is when all other's sleep! But at that moment my DS woke going "MUMEEE!!!" loud enough to wake the world, not just DH who would know I was still up!!
(2) MmeLindt - hope your SIL is well and new baby joy this weekend. Thanks for the birthday wishes, DS has had a fantastic weekend, I am on my KNEES!!! I know what you mean about the C-section, I have struggled long and hard knowing I will never have the excitement, trials and tribulations of a natural birth, so have emphasised the joy of the end product rather than my need to prove to myself that I could "do it" like a proper woman!!