Hi ladies, does anyone have a recommendation for consultants for high risk pregnancy, and more specifically pregnancy after loss? I’ve recently been through the horrific experience of a full term stillbirth after an otherwise uncomplicated, supposedly low risk “textbook” pregnancy. Not in a million years did I think this could happen to me but my precious angel baby died suddenly at 40+1 and I had no idea whatsoever anything was wrong until we went to the hospital after my waters broke and they told us the worst words any parents could ever hear: “there is no heartbeat”. We are reeling. I was under private care (at the Lindo) and had had a check up just 3 days before this happened and saw her little heartbeat on the ultrasound with my own eyes. All our tests and scans throughout the pregnancy were completely normal and she was a very active and healthy baby until the very end. Really struggling to wrap my head around how we could go from healthy baby to dead baby in the blink of an eye with no warning signs, no signs of distress, nothing. Physically and mentally I’m not yet ready to think about another pregnancy as I think my body, hear and mind need time to heal, but I feel like I now have all this love with nowhere to go and my husband and I both feel like although we can never replace our precious baby girl, the only way to bring some joy back into our shattered lives is to have another baby sooner than later. I’m not sure how to feel about our consultant - we loved him throughout the pregnancy as he was very relaxed and reassuring but obviously the outcome throws everything into question. I definitely feel like I need to shop around and seek second, third and fourth opinions before thinking about getting pregnant again because so far we have not been given a reason why this happened and I’m obviously terrified it could happen again. I’ve been told that any future pregnancies after a stillbirth would automatically be classed as “high risk” but in the absence of a clear reason I don’t know what could have been done differently. I don’t have any underlying conditions like diabetes or preeclampsia. There were no obvious issues with the cord or placenta but we are waiting for results from a more detailed analysis. I’m not overweight. I don’t smoke. Never taken drugs.. so I just feel i will be terrified for 9 months in my next pregnancy and I am torn about how to navigate it. Is it even worth paying for private care?! We did it because we felt it would protect us from an outcome like this particularly in the middle of a pandemic but clearly not.. I’m equally unsure about whether we go back to the Lindo Wing - the care I had was outstanding and every single midwife we interacted with was exemplary. But it’s also where I experienced the worst trauma of my life and I don’t know if going back would be too overwhelming.. sorry for the long rambling post but basically I’m completely at a loss of where to go from here and any advice would be appreciated.