Today I am nine days overdue. By this I mean past my due date. Please don't tell me due dates are only estimates, or that over due is actually beyond 42 weeks. I know this is true but I am super fragile right now and this isn't helping.
As well as being sick of the endless texts and phone calls, and the constant tips on inducing labour ("have a curry", "have some pineapple", "have sex", "go for a walk" yada, yada. Tried it all no joy) I am beginning to feel increasingly depressed and anxious. I can't fight the overwhelming feeling that my body is failing and not performing the way it is meant to
Had a sweep Tuesday this week which resulted in some spotting and then I had a bloody show on Wednesday. The midwife said cervix was far back but that she was able to pull it forwards and I was 1cm dilated. Since then I have had some minor niggles and inconsistent braxton hicks. Nothing else. I am so tired of going to sleep thinking something will happen when I wake up and am emotionally drained by the constant anticipation hanging over me. I am not sleeping properly and feel tearful all the time
Have a second sweep booked for Tuesday and induction on Wednesday. Although now resigned to the fact that induction is likely to be how my labour starts, I am increasingly worried about the induction failing, having to then have the drip and of having to have a ECS.
All in all I am tired and the longer this goes on the more I find myself worrying about. This is my first child and I know that I should focus on getting her here safely. I just feel like I am a failure already and am worried that the fact I am not labouring naturally (and that I am feeling so down) will impact on other things like breastfeeding.
Husband has been super supportive but family are annoying me with tales of own early labours and stupid messages telling me "hurry up and get my niece born". Think I just needed to let all this out and have a vent as I am currently spiralling with worry.
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Nine days overdue...feeling blue
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MrsFlowers82 · 20/11/2016 08:23
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