Just wondering if anyone can talk some sense into me! I can't stop regretting that I chose to give birth to my twins 3 months ago by ELCS.
3 years ago I had a vaginal delivery. It was fine and natural until baby got stuck and contractions stopped, and I had an induction drip, episiotomy and ventouse. I was a wreck afterwards due partly to the exhaustion of the experience. I also had a prolapse and suffered faecal incontinance for a year and needed physio, had a few awful accidents out of the house where I just didn't make it to the toilet in time, and many times at home this has happened to me and still does, in fact it happened only a couple of days ago.
So I opted to have my twins by ELCS. I somehow thought I would not be such a wreck afterwards. And would not make the incontience work. And I wouldn't have to go through the pain of labour.
But the trouble is, I regret it so much. The ELCS was a bad experience, and the recovery was awful. I was too out of it all day to know out which baby was which and I was in so much pain, and the babies were in bassinets and I couldn't reach them as I couldn't move.
For a long time after my vaginal delivery I felt like my baby was a part of my body that was no longer inside me. I don't feel like that with my twins, although I love them so much. I'm just regretting so much the experience I could have had and can't move on.
Sorry for rambling. Just need some reassurance/hand holding.
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Really regretting my birth choice and can't get over it
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aimees75 · 02/06/2016 23:26
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