Hello,
I'm 35+1 and have started completely shitting myself!
I have an elcs already signed off and an agreement that if I go into labour before then then I will be having an emcs.
Well I'm having a huge wobble and wondering if I've made the right decision.
I have had multiple miscarriages due to a bicornulate uterus with a full septum (it goes all the way to my cervix apparently) You might have seen my posts on here before!
Dd was born via emcs at 35 weeks when my waters broke spectacularly. She was breech (sp?)
This little guy is head down and in position and I'm starting to wonder if I should try a vbac but a few things are holding me back.
- A higher risk of scar rupture due to the dodgy womb shape.
- When we lost our little boy to a late miscarriage in 2014 I had a large bleed behind my placenta which refused to budge afterwards and needed a d&c for. I was quite ill afterwards and the surgeon said I was lucky I was on the operating table at the time! Apparently (again due to the dodgy womb) I am quite likely to have a problem with retained placenta etc.
- I have heard some horror stories about our local hospital (which is extremely busy) about women being left in rooms on their own despite being high risk a and early warning signs of distress being missed.
What would you do if you were in my position?
On the one hand I am anxious about the csection even though my last one was fine. I would like to have a go at a 'normal' birth but only if it was going to involve no forceps etc. (😂 I know, I know)
On the other hand I'm aware I've a higher chance of things going wrong and would rather have a team of professionals all there in the room with me! I feel selfish and like I might be risking our son it I don't have an elcs. All my family, friends and partner say they would prefer me to have an elcs.
Sorry for the ramble. I can feel the time slipping away and I'm really starting to doubt myself.