Hi there,
Feeling a little sad as I had my vba3c and was so ecstatic as it was the end of a long emotional journey for me after 5 years.
I had planned a home waterbirth but transferred due to some decelerations in the heartbeat. It was only mild but I knew it was the right thing to go in. As it was, baby was born half an hour later although I needed an episiotomy and a kiwi ventouse. But I didn't care one bit - I had my vbac with absolutely no pain relief in five hours and baby was fine...and gorgeous. I was on cloud nine.
But now I have been getting so many people asking if I am disappointed that I didn't get to do it all on my own and push him out etc etc and that things didn't go entirely to plan. I hadn't even thought to be disappointed about having an assisted birth - I was just so pleased I didn't end up having a fourth section. But now I keep thinking I should have held out and done it completely on my own. My midwife tells me baby was not overly happy and the heart decelerations were significant enough not to ignore.
And to top the lot I have some stitches from the episiotomy which have come apart. I am hoping it will heal ok so I don't need an operation later on.
Just feeling a little down after feeling so elated and euphoric. Sorry this is a bit of a ramble but just wanted to write it down. Dh doesn't understand - he says I got my vba3c which I have been desperate for and yet I am still not happy. I am - it's just all the comments I keep getting : (
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vba3c - was so happy but being brought back to earth with a bump : (
arizonagirl · 17/11/2010 23:03
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