My mother is 90 yrs old, suffers from arthritis, COPD, anaemia in addition to being partially sighted and very deaf. I'm an only child.
She has been in and out of hospital over the last year. She lived in sheltered accomodation, which she liked. I was visiting twice a day, via public transport, doing shopping, cleaning etc etc.
After her last illness and spell in hospital, she moved to a Extra Care facility at the end of my street. They sent her home from hospital with no care in place, I stepped in and it was sorted after 2 weeks.
I'm still doing washing and cleaning but ther's a care package in place. I arranged and delivered a party for her birthday last Sunday.
I popped in last night and she said she wishes she was dead. She won't participate in any of the activities, not even join others in the dining room for lunch. I feel as though yet again I've made the wrong decision. The care manager has rung just and shouted at me because she asked for the medication to be arranged differently, did not explain what she meant, so I did not do as she asked, (through lack of information).
I'm so worn down by all this; don't get me wrong, I know people cope with much more, but I have psioritic arthritis, a history of severe depression connected with my relationship with mother, work full-time, and am just at the end of my tether with having to constantly make decisions, and being made to feel stupid by people who have power over my mother.
DP says I should give her an ultimatum; either she engages in the community where she lives or she goes in a home. Mother always prided herself on not having put her mother in a home, and I don't know if I could deal with the guilt.
Any ideas of how I get to have some sort of life again; since she was ill last year I feel as though I've lost all my friendships, have no time with Dc and DGC.
Sorry this is so long, will be back later just off to sort medication.
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Earthymama · 03/10/2007 11:17
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