Firstly, before I start, I feel so awful for even typing this but I need help.
I'm the youngest of a big family. Around 10 years ago, my Mum became disabled and I had to stay at home to help her. In hindsight, I was staying because of the "risk" that she might hurt herself. She refused to move into an apartment and my siblings were happy enough to let me do everything. I was told, repeatedly, that I shouldn't move out and leave Mum on her own. While I'm in my 20s, they're all in their 40s and have married and settle down. I've had one sister who is very good but the other siblings are awful.
Fast forward - I meet someone and settle down and because of work commitments, I agree to move to her house around 3 hours away. I tell my siblings I'll still be with our Mum a couple of days a week, if they want to commit to a rota. They refuse. And, in short, they go nuts when I ask them if they can look after Mum for a week while I am away on holiday.
I love my Mum so much and she is a good person but I feel like my 20s were taken from me because it was just the easiest option for everyone if I stayed at home. If Mum needs go to hospital with an emergency, I have to get out of work to do it - the others refuse and say they "can't" get out of work.
A big part of the problem is that Mum doesn't help herself. I feel so guilty but I can't get my own work done when I'm here because she expects me to constantly do things for her. She refuses to help herself. She'll refuse to go to hospital when it's obvious something is wrong and it's my day off so I can take her - but then things escalate and I'm in work and we have to go to emergency. She needs to go into a supported living complex but refuses nice places offered because they're too small or for some other reason. The problem is, she makes bad choices which then impact me. I'm meant to be moving out this week? She now has to go to the emergency department because she didn't get checked out 3 weeks ago when I told her to. I feel so awful but I am so tired of my whole life being spent managing her because she won't help herself. And when anything bad happens, my siblings blame me. Turns out Mum's not been making her lunch while I'm in work, even though there's plenty of food in the fridge? My fault.
I feel awful but I am so, so tired of it all.
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MessTheStress · 20/02/2019 16:05
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