DS is 5 weeks old and was breastfeeding really well untill last week when I started to get really sore nipples and started suffering really bad shooting pains in my breasts after every feed, ds also started only going about 40 minutes between each feed.
To be honest it was just one more thing I couldn't be doing with, after suffering bad SPD for the last 10 weeks of pregnancy, then 5 days back to back labour, then a trapped nerve in my back and two infections in my c-section scar. I was just sick of being in constant pain and decided to switch him to formula.
I told my health visitor this the day after I stopped and explained how painful feeding had become, she was supportive but failed to pick up on the fact that both me and DS were suffering from really bad oral and nipple thrush by this stage, despite me mentioning DS mouth being covered in white stuff.
Anyway days later I self diagnoised the thrush and we went to the doctor. I now have some cream and DS has some oral gel.
The thing is I cannot get over the fact I've stopped breastfeeding, I left it for days thinking I'd made the right choice and was aware that my milk was drying up. I then changed my mind because I was so upset and tried to express some off and also put DS back on the breast but it was so sore still and from expressing I could see there was barely any milk left.
Today I looked in the mirror and realised my breasts had returned to their pre pregnancy state and I feel devastated. I'm so angry that I didn't realise I had thrush earlier on and have sorted this sooner. DS was a real breast baby and loved feeding, now I can tell he dislikes his formula and is a really fussy eater.
Is it normal to feel such a sense of loss after stopping breastfeeding? I just can't seem to get over it. I've heard about relactation and tried putting DS to the breast yesterday but it was still so sore and I know there is nothing left in them. I'm crying as I write this, I don't know what I'm expecting anyone to say, just needed some support I guess, Thanks
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Sense of loss after stopping breastfeeding early, support/advice needed please
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SatHereSitting · 08/06/2009 11:09
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