I am 20 weeks pregnant with my fourth child. My first child I breast fed for 6 days but hated every minute of it. It hurt and my baby was constantly hungry. I was also a young single mum (18) and completely overwhelmed with being a parent.
My second child I breast fed for 5 days and I can still remember the horrible feeling of dread every time he needed a feed. He also had severe reflux which made feeding uncomfortable for him and he was constantly unsettled.
My third baby I was adamant I was not going to breast feed and he went onto formula from birth.
I think it’s important to say that I have had very complex mental health problems my whole life and these have always been made worse by pregnancy and birth. So every time I have had a newborn I have been in a bad place mentally.
I am now in a good place. I have finally found the right medication and i have been stable for nearly 4 years. I am pregnant with my fourth child and actually enjoying the pregnancy and the thought of being a mum again (which is new, all my previous pregnancies have been difficult).
I have begun thinking about when baby arrives and I think I would like to try breastfeeding again but I am scared. I am scared that it will hurt and I will get overwhelmed. I am scared that it won’t work and then I will feel like a failure again. So what do i do? Do I try again or play it safe and accept that breast feeding is not for me?
If I am going to try it again how can I give myself the best chance of success?
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CleverQuacks · 12/04/2020 19:42
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