The baby is thriving, my supply is fantastic, and I have no pain. By rights, everything should be rosy. I should be all smug.
But I am starting to get badly affected. I get terrible nausea with each feed. Google tells me it's normal and will normally pass by 6 weeks. But I feed every 2 hrs which means I am nauseated most of the time. I'm losing weight so fast and eating nothing more than toast. Often I am actually gagging whilst she feeds. It upsets me terribly.
Baby has terrible trapped wind. Won't settle till 1am every night as it's a constant cycle of feed/wind/fail/wind/fail/feed/wind/fail..... Needless to say baby is very fussy and unsettled throughout. It gets to me. Sometimes I think I'm going mad from the sleep deprivation and the endless cycle of it. Then after she does drop off at 1, its up every two hours after, with me gagging in the dark.
She won't be put down and when awake is constantly writhing with trapped wind. I spend 24 hrs a day holding her and rocking her and winding her. I feel horribly "touched out" already. Her little hands constantly grasping at my neck - that sounds awful but it gives me the shudders. Possibly cos of the nausea. It's pure claustrophobia. I have a sling but can't bear to wear it on the house. It would feel even more suffocating.
GP has put her on ranitidine. I've seen no difference tbh. She doesn't puke as much I guess? Though she still does every couple of days. That's about it.
Today DH told me to give her a bottle if BFing was upsetting me. So I did...and paid for it. 45 minutes of the most horrendous trapped wind, it was torture to watch. I tried everything, including gripe water even though she's too young. Was desperate. Took forever for her to settle down. Poor thing. Feel like I can't do either breast or bottle feeding right and feeling quite low.
I don't have PND, but I know full well I'm at risk of it if this continues. And that won't help anyone.
I don't even know why I'm posting - a scream into the void, I guess.
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Only 2 weeks into BF.... and I'm miserable.
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NeenerNina · 10/10/2016 14:36
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