Is this a real thing? Or should I be cautious it's not a into PND?
Quick story: I exclusively fed DD for the first 5 days of her life, then stopped because I had cracked and bleeding nipples. After 48 hours I felt sad about it so put her back to the breast. For a week all she did was feed but this was ok as we sorted her latch and I was no longer bleeding or sore.
After a week she started screaming after a feed, she would always have both breasts and feed till she latched off. Id offer her the breast again, she would latch on but all she would do would be to cry so I started to top her up, which began to become a vicious cycle, for a few days she would feed for 20 mins per boob, then have a 4 oz bottle, then it was 15 mins a boob and a 5 oz bottle, then 10 mins a boob and a 6 oz bottle.
I really wanted breastfeeding to work, I tried fennugreek, fennel tea, doperiodome from the doctor. I even saw a lactation consultant who checked for tongue tie and all the other tricks for getting feeding to work, ie going to bed for a week, pumping lots to get supply up etc. Nothing would work and she still screamed for a bottle after a bf.
She would start her feed on the boob fine, just "needed" formula too. It began to make me cry whenever she needed to eat :-( then 3 weeks ago I got a sick bug and she wouldn't breastfeed all weekend and then refused boob one I was better. I pumped some milk into a bottle a few times but she would just scream and spit it out and then guzzle formula. I had mastitis twice too, just to make things even worse!
Is it normal to feed a bit heartbroken almost at the feeding stopping? It's horrible feeling this way and I know deep down I've done my best but somehow it doesn't feel good enough :-(
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MrsGiraffe12 · 11/01/2015 08:50
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