DS is 9mo and still bf on demand. I go back to work in 4 months and my work pattern will mean I will leave the house before he wakes up. I am in denial at the thought of how I will cope without giving him his morning feed when he wakes up :-(( Am sure he'll be fine and he'll be over 13mo then so who knows, he may not be having much anyway, or will be happy with milk from a cup/bottle from DP, but the thought of it now breaks my heart.
I think its normal to be bereft and to miss it when its over. I guess that's why we keep having more babies :-)
Oh god, I still feel a bit like this and I stopped two months ago when dd was 13months. (Hence me lurking on the bf board like some weirdo ). I think people don't talk about this enough, actually, because it's not a very 'rational' emotion so we feel like we're being silly?
As if ration ever comes into anything involving having children
My DS went on a nursing strike at 11.5mths, 6 weeks ago and I now know he's not going to be feeding again. He of course is happy as anything with his guernsey cows milk in a straw cup!
I am so sad that he's finished feeding though I know that it was always going to have to happen - we had such a struggle to start as he had tongue tie and could never latch until he had it snipped at 4 weeks and then we were off!
Of everything, since DS was born, breast feeding has been the most highly charged emotional thing - I was distraught when I couldn't feed him when he was first born and am heartbroken that its over.
But for 11 months I had the most wonderful experience of breastfeeding him and I have to keep reminding myself of that!
I felt like that when DS stopped at 23 months, even though it was only a bedtime feed and I chose to end it by replacing it with a cup of warm cow's milk and an extra story. It's the end of an era, I think it's normal to feel sad. Be kind to yourself for a bit OP.