Tonight I did what I hope is my final breastfeeding session with ds1. I just can't do it any longer. I wanted a more natural end, and when I got pregnant with ds2, I thought maybe ds1 would self-wean. Nope, it was him feeding that helped start my labour!
So then I felt like I couldn't stop because he'd be resentful of ds2. Then I wanted to get potty training sorted (we'd had a failed attempt before ds2 came).
Now I've run out of excuses. I'm fed up, feel annoyed at least half the times ds1 feeds, then feel guilty for considering stopping when it's clearly so important to him.
But he's 3 years, 2.5 months today and shows no signs of giving up. We only got down to once a day at my insistence. Particularly when he is ill, he'd always ask for more. So for the last few weeks I'd told him that at some point he wouldn't have 'boobies' any longer. Then yesterday I told him his feed tonight would be the last one.
I felt really emotional, had to tandem fed him and ds2 (3.5mo) because ds2 just couldn't wait and I had nothing expressed.
I know I could carry on feeding ds1, but I just don't want to. Don't they say 'for as long as is mutually desirable'? It's just not mutual now, and I'm finding myself resenting ds1,getting sick of being touched, being annoyed when I've got to spend time feeding him.
I don't want to go back on it, but I was so sad tonight that I'm scared I might. I think my own emotional issues with this might actually be harder than putting up with ds1's screaming tomorrow night.
I would really like to hear from other extended feeders who didn't wait for self weaning - - how did you do it and how did you get over the guilt?
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Extended breastfeeding, can't wait for self-weaning, hand-holding please!
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YankNCock · 09/11/2012 20:48
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