Sorry this is probably going to be long.
DS is 12 weeks and EBF. He is a big boy - 9.8lb at birth and has put on weight really well since then - up in 91st  centile, in the early weeks was gaining a pound a week and now weighs in at a rather whopping 15.3lb!Â
He feeds as you can imagine like a demon, at least every 2 hours, sometimes every hour in the day and I am exhausted.
He is a happy content baby and an ok sleeper and goes down by around 8.30/9pm if we're lucky until around midnight but then still wakes in the night for a feed every 2/2.5 hours ish and by the time I've got him back into bed I'm only getting about an hours sleep at a time - we do have the odd random night where he will sleep in longer spells but I could count them on one hand.
He has had an awful cold the last week so has been up every hour some nights so tiredness probably doesn't help how I feel at the moment.
I'm happy in myself and loving being a mum, going to nct meets, swimming lessons etc and enjoying being at home having pj days with my baby way hung tv and constantly eating but am finding the feeding is starting to get me down at times.
what doesn't help is that my boobs are absolutely gigantic and unbelievably heavy  - 38JJ at present and lugging them and a 15lb baby around is starting to take its toll on my back. My knees are killing me too.Â
I guess I feel guilty and selfish for feeling this way because feeding has been so easy for us - I was terrified before having had so many friends who have struggled with bf and DS feeds efficiently, gently and usually with minimal fuss so I know how lucky I am but am so uncomfortable :(
At the last feed before bed now DS has started screaming, really fussing, coming on and off, gulping loads of air to the point where he is inconsolable and DH has to take him off me to calm him downÂ
He has been checked for TT and all fine and i know I have a fast let down but he seems to guzzle it down no problem most of the time.
Family and a few well meaning friends are now suggesting giving one bottle of formula at night to help him sleep longer but for MY benefit and I'm so tired and uncomfortable I can't think straight about it and have been close to it a few times and for whatever reason feel disappointed about this. I have friends/family that ff so I didn't think I would feel judgemental about it at all but I'm hesitant about giving him a bottle so maybe I am after all? Who knows?
I have expressed and myself/DH have given him 80/100ml in a bottle at night but it doesn't make him go any longer or make him any happier at that feed.Â
I am so proud of the fact he is ebf as it has been such hard work feeding round the clock and I feel bad for feeling selfish when I should be doing all I can for my baby.
Could my milk supply be too low by the time the evening comes so he is grouchy because he can't get enough milk?Â
Has he got into the habit of snacking overnight rather than taking a whole feed so that's why he wakes so frequently?
I just feel so uncomfortable with these giant boobs and could do with a vent really I guess and any advice on giant boobs or going longer at night- apologies for the pity party
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Impatientwino · 20/10/2012 21:13
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