Feeling really low (long)(8 Posts)
I an feeling really upset this morning. My baby is 15 days old. We had a normal labour & delivery and got Breastfeeding started right away. We got home and by the end of week 1 things were going well. On Sunday I had very sharp stabbing pain in my abdomen after urinating and when bending over.
I called NHS 24 and got an appointment at out of hours for 12.15am. They were running late so we were seen at 2.30am. Doctor diagnosed a bladder infection, prescribed antibiotics and we went home. The pain just got worse and I lay on the soda shivering and sobbing while my baby screamed with hunger. I told my DH at this point to go to TESCO and buy formula as I just couldn't feed her. He suggested we phone the midwife unit where I had given birth for advice.
They asked to come in. On arrival the midwife noted that my right breast was hard and red. I started expressing from both breasts. During the morning a doctor came to see me and examined my bladder. He suggested keep taking the antibiotics and I should see an improvement. Before lunch I was shivering again. After lunch I was too hot and sweating. My temperature was monitored and it kept rising. I kept expressing regularly but the volume from both breasts was reducing each time. In the late afternoon I was shivering again.
The doctor returned and said I had to be transferred to the regional teaching hospital as I needed 24hr medical care. I was transferred in an ambulance while my DH brought the baby through in the car.
Investigations then began as to the source of the infection. I was started on IV antibiotics for bladder, blood and breast infections. I had an ultrasound on my uterus to rule out retained products. I then had an allergic reaction to one of the antibiotics.
The source was identified as the breast and I was put onto oral antibiotics. I was then able to be transferred back to my local midwife unit.
I was able to keep bf going on my left breast throughout but baby needed formula top up as she had lost weight and her blood results showed very low levels of potassium and sodium.
So I am in the midwife unit crying. Baby is in pain with the runs caused by my antibiotics. She is vomiting up the formula. We're both now likely to get thrush. My right nipple is so damaged I get scared looking at it. I just feel emotionally done. I can't cope any more. It's been so awful.
I'm so sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. I'm sure people keep telling you, but you and baby are in the best place.
Formula is very different to breastmilk so it may take a little while for your baby to keep it down. My ds had to have mixed feeding when we were in hospital as he was kept in special care for a while. I know how hard it is to watch them be ill and not be able to help.
If you do both get thrush it's relatively easy to treat, it's a little uncomfortable for both of you but can be cleared quite quickly. Hopefully you have no lasting damage and you'll be out of there soon.
It's hard, but try and relax - stress will make you feel 100 times worse.
So sorry to hear how rough it is at the moment. What a start to motherhood!
My own experience was so similar. I desperately wanted to BF and yet I got mastitis as well as a wound infection in c section scar. Antibiotics required in both instances. Yes, thrush followed; yes, it hurt a lot. My nipples looked and felt like war zones. I too have sat in a hospital crying, feeling like my body isn't my own and will never quite recover. BUT the infections went away, the thrush was treated, the wound is healing.
What struck me is how well you've done to keep on with the BF throughout your ordeal. You have will of steel and a good supportive partner by the sound if it.
Knowing to anticipate the thrush is good. Hopefully this means you'll be in it early and can nip it in the bud. Its sore but it gets easier once treatment starts.
My baby is now 4 months and life couldn't be more different. Im still BF and i love the comfort it gives my baby and the freedom
it gives me. Had resigned myself to FF if needed but all of a sudden things seemed to slot into place, just as i was ready to pack it in. All the pain and hassle will pass. It might be that you hit the wall today.
stargirl - so sorry to read all that....what a horrible time.
There should be an infant feeding specialist in the maternity unit - she might be called 'the feeding coordinator' or something like that. Whatever. You can ask to see her and she should (if she is any good!) talk about getting back to bf, and help you devise a plan for this.
Hope today goes better for you.
Stargirl you are doing a amazing job, and even through all this to say your thinking of me today has nearly brought me to tears. Keep your chin up you are doing so well and please don't give yourself a hard time. I'll be thinking of you today as well.
Thank you lama, birds and tiktok for your support. I'm feeling more positive at the moment. The midwife unit loaned us a pram so we went out for a walk in the sun today.
Technoduck you are making ME cry . Hope today went smoothly.
Baby star and I got home from hospital today. I'm feeling much more positive. I read and re-read these messages of support many times. Thank you folks.
That's really great, pleased you guys are doing better
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