Wondering if any of you have shared my situation, and might be able to offer some advice. It's long and heavy, so brace yourselves....
My mum had some cancerous cells removed in January. The doctors removed more cancerous cells last month. They said the second operation was a regrowth, and not simply cells that were missed the first time. They have recommended a course of chemotherapy and radiation, and want to start immediately. My mother is refusing, as she doesn't believe she has the emotional or physical strength to withstand the treatment - and she's probably right.
She was due at a family reunion this past weekend, and decided not to come at the last minute (even though transport had been arranged for her). She seems to have given up all hope, is severely depressed, rarely answers the phone and stays in bed all day. She is also smoking and drinking heavily every day. (It's likely her cancer was caused by smoking, and she has permanent liver damage already due to a lifetime of heavy drinking.) It's almost as if she's committing a slow suicide.
We have never been close, but it is clear that she will probably not be alive much longer. I live in London, she is in America. We are due to see her in the next few weeks, and it is likely that it will be the last time I see her alive.
I've been thinking about what to say to her when I visit. She was a decent mother when it came to feeding/clothing/ferrying us around. But, she was a crap mum on the emotional/supportive spectrum. She was verbally abusive, angry, hostile, aggressive, depressed, needy, self absorbed, etc. Both she and my father were alcoholics, and "home" was a poisonous place as a child.
I don't want regrets or guilt when she's dead. I feel sad and angry that she's chosen this route. But, how do you say goodbye in an honest and yet compassionate way to a parent who failed you on most every level?
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Earlybird · 19/07/2005 20:20
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