he died 8 years ago and I've been once, before DS was born (so over 7 yrs ago)
I just don't seem to be able to go.... I was in a very bad relationship when Grandad died and I never went on the last trip to see him, so I never got to say good bye until the curtain drew on his coffin and he went forever I broke down at that point and howled - a proper primate howl and had to leave the ceremony, so I have awful memories of the time
I saw him for the last time before he moved south and got sick, and left with a simple "see you soon" - not a proper good bye, not like everyone else did (I don't know why I didn't go... I was not myself at the time, going through what I can only describe as a mental breakdown or something)
Should I go? I don't know if I could do it without actually breaking down in tears
I couldn't go with anyone else - it'd have to be on my own; my nan and mum wouldn't cope with my tears if they were there.