I thought I was getting somewhere, managing to cope and start to accept that I haven't got my mum anymore, but the past few days it all feels fresh again, I miss her so much, and each time I find myself in a situation where I would have called her, asked her advice, told her something, it hits me all over again.
I still dont have anyone I can really talk to and Im just so tired, Im sick of the fact that it feels like everyone at work thinks Im fine, and asks me how my weekend was etc, how the hell do they think it was?! I usually say fine thanks, when I want to scream, it was sh**, I was crying a lot, I was lonely, and my mum just died so how the hell do you think? I wish they wouldnt ask.
Sorry, had to let it out, tried to call my counselling phone service but they arent there on Sundays and I knew this was a safe place to talk. I took Friday as holiday as I was so worn out, but all this time on my own is just making me think more and miss her more. I think on some level I think she'll come back, does anyone else feel that too?
This is just too hard.
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LittleGirlLost09 · 02/08/2009 14:17
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