It's my birthday today, a complete non-event. My Dad was diagnosed with cancer five years ago, and so very bravely fought for extra time with treatment. Exactly a year ago I sat at his hospital bedside as the cancer ravaged his spine and left him paralized. It is also my birthday.
It feels as if every week has been some anniversary of his last days recently. As soon as I pick myself up another date comes. He died last July and for so long I felt I could cope, but the last month has been full of reminders, each one knocking me down again in grief.
All day, friends have been ringing to wish me 'happy birthday', but it's not. Just another reminder.
When is it supposed to ease? My DH has had to take DD1 to MILs this week because I didn't want her to be affected by my grief. She is 8 and really misses my Dad too. So I am at home, alone with my DD2 who is 3. Couldn't quite be on my own so she has stayed with me. She doesn't notice when Mummy is crying, she is just happy.
Don't need any replies, just wanted not to feel on my own.
I miss my Daddy, so sad when I am 38
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Today is my birthday and the first anniversary of when my Dad really started dying
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drivinmecrazy · 28/05/2009 21:54
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28/05/2009 21:59
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