Its been 4 years and I still cant get over it. He died exactly 4 years ago after a very quick diagnosis of Leaukemia and tonsillitis. He was basically diagnosed the 16th and then the 17th he was gone. I wasnt there and wasnt even at his funeral. I came over to England 4 years ago on the 6th May and 11 days later he was gone. My ticket could not be changed to return and mom adviced that it would be better also not to come as he would have understood. He left behind 2 daughters ages 2 years and only 2 months. No one had any idea that he was sick. He was 28 years old and was 3 years older than me. It will be my 30th in July and I have been so afraid of my birthday for the last 4 years. I cant mention it to anyone but its mostly for the fact that he never reached that age and I am convinced that I wont as well. He left behind 2 very very young girls and I have a little daughter and am so afraid of going through the same. I was due my smear in November but am so scared and rather want to wait until after my birthday before having a smear just in case its "bad news".
Tell me I am not crazy please? But I miss him so much, i cant stop crying and just wish he could have met my little family and that he was still here for his.
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Its been 4 years since my brother passed on
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EvaLongoria · 17/05/2009 00:12
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