Haunted

[sarah876]

when i look back im still so haunted..i would love to look back and smile but instead my heart aches. I had split up from my husband because of years of struggle with his drinking. the story is very long and complex but in august 2007 i got a phone call from my mother inlaw telling me that he was brain dead and on a life support machine all because someone decided to punch him, only the once, causing him to hit his head on the hard ground causing multi bleeds on the brain. He finally died 2 days later. i kissed him goodbye.there is a song i listen to called she has no time by keane and eveytime it makes me think of the first time i saw him and the last and so my heart opens and the tears begin....i am so saddened and frustrated, i can not change anything and have memories i sometimes wish were not there. just having one of those days!

[ReinDIORdroppings]

Message withdrawn

[EvenstarofWonder]

You will still grieve for him Sarah, do you feel in a way that you are not "allowed" these feelings because you had split up and your marriage had been affected by his drinking. Have you had any counselling or do you have a close friend that you can share these emotions with? I am sorry for your loss and that you are going through this, there are many people here who can empathise with your feelings, please talk here if it helps.

[mother3]

So sad to hear this story.Just try to think of the happy times when you first met him.Do you know why some 1 punched him ?Was they arguing.He is out of his misery now .Drink is a sign he was hiding from some thing.You are grieving for what you lost not the abuse.Perhaps a trip to th doc might help to arrange counselling.god bless please dont cry.god bless