My DS2 died 2 years ago today. He was stillborn 2 days later (at 36 weeks) but this was the day he died.
All the stupid 'what ifs' keep going through my head.
What if I'd said yes when DH suggested going into the hospital that evening. I said no as DS2 had been so busy the evening before I thought he'd MUST have been kicking me all day and I just was so used to it I wasn't even registering it. WHAT IF? What if he was only struggling then and they could have saved him if I'd gone in? What if I let him die because I didn't go in right then and waited to go the next morning? Why did I do that?
I miss him so much I can hardly breathe.
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ChubbyDick · 25/11/2008 19:03
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