To my dad...... the glue that held us together, the grandad that I so wish my boys could have known

[TheMadHouse]

Tomorrow will be the 8th aniversary of my fathers death and I am missing him pretty acutly at the moment.

My dad was a great dad and the glue that held our family together and also the one that kept my mother sane and on the right track.

I suppose the reason I am feeling his loss so much this year is that my mum suffered a breakdown 3 weeks ago and is at pretty much rock bottom.

My dad was fatally injured in an industrial accident and was hospitalised in ITU for 3 weeks before his death, where he was kept heavily sedated and ventilated. He was not allowed to regain conciousness and died from a complication (blood poisoning) just as we dare hope that he may recover. It was a cruel blow that fate dealt us.

He was crushed by a steel plate whilst inspecting someone elses work and the company was found negligent and the man who failed to isolate the electricity has never returned to work (he was too truamatised). I am no longer angry at the manner in which he was taken, just the fact that he was.

He has not been around to meet his grandchildren, he would be so proud of my boys and I so want DS1 to have met the man he was named after.

DS2 looks so like him that it is scary.

He never got to see my brother marry or meet my wonderful sister in law and neice.

He never experianced my brother grow into the man that he is from the boy that he was - he would have glowed with pride a the party and fireworks display that my Bro and SIL held at their club this evening.

I miss talking to him about top gear.

I miss his smell and the way that his hairstyle never changed in over 50 years.

I miss enjoying a cream tea with him (our shared vice).

So dad - here's to you, to the most wonderful dad in the world, the best dad a girl could have wished for. I love you and know that you loved me.

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hUGS.

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oH gOD sO SORRY

[Gingerbear]

Oh, my - you poor love, I lost my dad in July this year, and I share your pain and pride in your dad.I miss my dad too. Big mutual hug.

[Gingerbear]

By the way, my dad had a fantastic head of black curly hair - he went bald pretty quickly and we all joked about it and getting him an afro wig

[TheMadHouse]

I have just about managed to hold it all together today.

My mum has had a few "not nice" words. ie your dad loved you more than me etc. She is just bitter and greiving.

DS2 walked past my dads picture on the way to bed tonight and said "night night Grandpa Mad - I love you and mummy is missing you" How true