my mum died unexpectedly two weeks ago. She'd had a very long illness and we expected her to die but not so soon or so suddenly.
I've spent the last two weeks cleaning out her house and things, arranging the funeral, which was two days ago. It's been busy but good to be busy.
I'm now home - a long way away - for the first time and I'm finding it really difficult. Today is the first day at home alone with baby.
She's always been a bad sleeper and is atrocious when we're away so I haven't had more than two hours sleep at a stretch in the last two weeks (DH couldn't be there to help). She's usually a good napper, but I've struggled today to get her to go down for more than 20 minutes. I've just got really cross with her and left her upstairs in her cot crying. I usually never do anything like this.
I just feel I need some time to myself. Not for anything in particular but I do. Mum was an alcoholic and I loved her dearly, although obviously things were often difficult and usually strained int he last feew years. I need some space to deal with it. I know DD (9.5 months) probably just picking up on my stress and she can't help it poor thing.
I've got no question really, just tips maybe. I know there's no way to making it not hard, but I don't want to carry on getting cross with DD. In many ways it is a blessing to have her at this time.
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LaTrucha · 23/10/2008 16:22
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