The op says it all really. My sister was 54 and had been doing really well fighting kidney cancer for 8 years, so we were very lucky to have had her as long as we did. However, I work at the hospital she came to for treatment and unfortunately, they did mess up the procedure and she deteriorated over the next 3 days. The last day I saw her properly she was very confused and had gone into liver failure. She kept opening her eyes and saying "help me". I was crap and didn't know what to do. I left a few hours later and she was put into intensive care. She was there for a week. I visited once but am ashamed to say I couldn't cope with seeing her like that, and so I didn't go back. I did stupidly walk up and down the corridor where intensive care is, but just couldn't do it. Last Tuesday the doctors told my BIL, Dad and nieces, they could do no more and they turned off her life support.
I was due back at work today, but I can't go, I just can't face anyone. I cry at the stupidest times, when I'm least expecting it, like bent over the bath washing my hair or at the supermarket. The funeral is this Friday and I can't bring myself to order any flowers because it seems so pointless. My dh and dds have been great but I feel like they think I should be OK now and I'm not, so I spend most of my time feeling like I have a huge lump in my throat, and trying not to fall apart. Thankyou for listening and letting me talk to you.
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My big sister died last Tuesday and I can't face work.
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shewhoneverdusts · 08/09/2008 11:03
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