feeling so low

[mishi1977]

hi all
sorry to come on and moan but i just feel so low at the minute. I had my op last thurs and had very little bleeding until tues when i stupidly helped DH move a TV..to be honest i forgot about not doing heavy lifting etc...anyway since then have been bleeding quite heavily..not excessivly but more like very heavy period...have also been getting pains in my stomach and pains in my back. I am also feeling emotionally drained and low...sitting sobbing now...i do suffer depression but had started to come out of it but now i feel like i am back at stage one again and have been thinking about sh again....i know its stupid cos i am lucky to have a beautiful little boy but pip was bringing so much hope to...somone on my ds birthboard has just announced their BFP which is great and i dont begrudge them as there are also a couple of ladies who would have been on the july board with me but it has absolutely devestated me.....I just keep thinking its so not fair..this wasnt even my first mc but it has hit me the hardest...why do i have 3 angels and some other people go on to get pg with no probs and some dont even want to be...how is that fair...sorry to go on i just need to vent..although it prob not helping anyone else....i want to talk to dh about it but he gets upset too....also i dont even know what to say...
sorry
mishi
mc nov 98
mc june 2001
DS 10.10.03
missed mc dec 04

[mishi1977]

sorry to explain the op was utereus evacuation

[Titania]

poor you...lifes so unfair isnt it....i hope that in time it gets a little easier for you. I know it will never go away, but hopefully easier to live with. I have had 3 miscarriages as well. One of the worst things I have ever had to deal with. {{{HUGS}}} take care x x x

[kangamummy]

I don't really know what to say apart from sending you cyberhugs {{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}

[lunavix]

.. like Titania I've had three as well. Life can be pretty crap hun. I guess you've just got to keep battling through it. xx

[amynnixmum]

{{{{hugs}}}}}

[mishi1977]

thanks ladies..iyts just soo bloody hard

[mishi1977]

y r things so difficult all dh and i have done since he cam ein from work is argue...i am just so fed up

[Canadianmom]

{{mishi}} Sorry... Wish I could offer anything more helpful than sympathy. Feel free to rant here. We are all here to read/listen. My heart goes out to you.
I have been down the same road three times and although I am grateful for my children, it is really sad to have 4 babies in heaven.