Hi, I don't know why I am posting. My kids are devastated, dp doesn't know what to say.
She was fine til a few weeks ago. We booked theatre tickets to her favourite show for next year. Then she struggled to breath and go diagnosed with asthma.
Today, I spoke to her. She had opened door number 2 on the Advent calendar I got her. It was a conditioner. She was going to wash her hair and use it.
Before she got to the shower, she couldn't breathe. Dad got her inhaler but it didn't help and he called an ambulance. They arrived quickly, she collapsed and stopped breathing and they couldn't get her back.
I walked into their house and she was gone. She was in bed, the ambulance people still there.
I have had to phone family. Dad is worrying that she had a hair appointment booked and I can't get hold of her hair dresser to cancel.
Dad's broken. I am just sat feeling numb. I should be in pain and know it will probably come. But I don't want it to. I want to be numb forever.
I keep getting upset over the Advent calendar that will remain unopened from today. It was meant for her to treat herself. To pamper herself. And now it's just there.
I don't know what to do. I don't how she was here and then she wasn't. I miss her already.
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I talked to mum this morning. She was gone this afternoon.
Darkpheonix · 02/12/2021 19:39
So sorry op
You are in shock, still processing it. Give yourself space to grieve, the kids will be ok, tell your dp what you need eg space, keep busy we are all different. Also tell friends how they can help
So sorry for your loss. Everything seems so much worse when it's out of the blue
Oh you poor love, I'm so very sorry. It's not surprising that you feel numb, what a shock this is for you. There's no right and wrong way to feel when something like this happens. However you feel is right for you at the moment. Sending love 
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