Hi. So, I'm writing because I can no longer cope. 11 years ago Dad for dementia and I lost him 5 years ago. Straight away Mum got diagnosed with kidney failure. 6 months ago she died of covid, which we suspect she caught during dialysis. Some days I miss her so much I just can't stop crying. Going to her home is a struggle. It's only now I am feeling ready to deal with probate papers and practicalities. I'm an only child. I'm in my 30s. I'm being pathetic here but I feel very alone and scared. People tell me to be strong and not to panic etc etc etc etc. But I've burnt out. I've had enough. Last night my OH, who has epilepsy and another related condition had a major seizure. Today I had to work half a day. I had to take time off previously due to waiting covid results and due to being bereaved and sad. I think my work is beginning to see me as a liability. My DH is ok thankfully, but it's a scary time. My house is a tip. I'm exhausted by 7pm every night. I feel pathetic and like I'm letting everyone down due to only being able to be a Mum and work. Sorry to rant and be self pitying but this is my only outlet.
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Ellaandlouisqueenandking · 06/11/2020 23:59
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